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summer is good. i start summer school this monday at 9 30 in the morning though, which im not really looking forward to. ive been working a lot, but im making good money so its not too bad. it would be nice to get a break though. this is like the one night in the past week i havent spent with jeff and i already miss him. weird? definitely weird for me.
i had my first "meeting" with my dad on wednesday. it went better than i thought. i just kinda pulled the "my priorities have been screwed up and you were right about everything" card and he liked that. as long as he thinks hes in charge then he is fine. whatever. if it keeps me from getting my car taken away i can deal. wow that sounds horrible...
i know i say this way too much but i am still so disgusted with myself. ive been dieting for forever and its not working. i barely fit into my jeans anymore and it makes me want to cry. ive been exercising recently too, but i guess not as much as i should be? i dont have enough money right now to get a gym membership, so ive just been kinda working out around my house and walking and running. i dont know what to do with myself. and regardless of what you may think, i dont write this stuff down for sympathy or compliments. only a few people know i even have this journal, and i write it for myself, not for anyone else. so i dont give a shit if you comment on it or not. dont take that in a mean way either...
alright well i guess thats it for now. its kind of an emo night for me.
i had my first "meeting" with my dad on wednesday. it went better than i thought. i just kinda pulled the "my priorities have been screwed up and you were right about everything" card and he liked that. as long as he thinks hes in charge then he is fine. whatever. if it keeps me from getting my car taken away i can deal. wow that sounds horrible...
i know i say this way too much but i am still so disgusted with myself. ive been dieting for forever and its not working. i barely fit into my jeans anymore and it makes me want to cry. ive been exercising recently too, but i guess not as much as i should be? i dont have enough money right now to get a gym membership, so ive just been kinda working out around my house and walking and running. i dont know what to do with myself. and regardless of what you may think, i dont write this stuff down for sympathy or compliments. only a few people know i even have this journal, and i write it for myself, not for anyone else. so i dont give a shit if you comment on it or not. dont take that in a mean way either...
alright well i guess thats it for now. its kind of an emo night for me.