An Update of my sad existence
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My weekend was a total waste. (no 'sex') Like, I wish I could have gotten into some kind of program - so I could have bettered the world this weekend. I could have saved - puppies - ... what a stupid thought. Ugh.
I belittle myself. *This sounds serious*
I found out that Altoona has kick ass free television. Like, I get nicktoons network (they play ren and stimpy at midnight! OMG!), two disney channels - oxygen (don't dump on oxygen! I watched Ellen!). I really haven't watched TV since i started college - and to just vege - for HOURS - was really nice. And Penn State BEAT ohio state! *dances*
I've realized, that because I'm a mixture of Charlotte and Carrie (Sex and the City) - I believe in happy endings and love at first sight, however, whenever I find Mr. Perfect (ie Aidan) I can't handle it, and I screw everything up and I need someone as fucked up as me to continue to fuck myself up to be happy. (Wait, did that make sense?) Not that I've found anything CLOSE to Mr. Perfect up here - but one 'Mr. Perfect for this moment' - and this moment only.
It ended with a clove cigarette next to the campus stream - texting Lenore, chicken and brocchli, seeing him - eye contact - and with that eye contact - full closure. For this moment. And this moment only.
Well, I got an AC/DC tee-shirt out of this whole weekend.
My weekend was a total waste. (no 'sex') Like, I wish I could have gotten into some kind of program - so I could have bettered the world this weekend. I could have saved - puppies - ... what a stupid thought. Ugh.
I belittle myself. *This sounds serious*
I found out that Altoona has kick ass free television. Like, I get nicktoons network (they play ren and stimpy at midnight! OMG!), two disney channels - oxygen (don't dump on oxygen! I watched Ellen!). I really haven't watched TV since i started college - and to just vege - for HOURS - was really nice. And Penn State BEAT ohio state! *dances*
I've realized, that because I'm a mixture of Charlotte and Carrie (Sex and the City) - I believe in happy endings and love at first sight, however, whenever I find Mr. Perfect (ie Aidan) I can't handle it, and I screw everything up and I need someone as fucked up as me to continue to fuck myself up to be happy. (Wait, did that make sense?) Not that I've found anything CLOSE to Mr. Perfect up here - but one 'Mr. Perfect for this moment' - and this moment only.
It ended with a clove cigarette next to the campus stream - texting Lenore, chicken and brocchli, seeing him - eye contact - and with that eye contact - full closure. For this moment. And this moment only.
Well, I got an AC/DC tee-shirt out of this whole weekend.