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I am so tired. I am just tired beyond myself.
Sometimes, I think I try too hard to be strong, weakness seem like I will have to look vulnerable.
I try so hard not to cry, and I just end up brawling.
It's not even funny.
I wonder if you think of me too.
Oh gosh. It's me being pathetic and hapless again.
I need to be stronger than that.
jcxf, come out quick..
Went out sister yesterday. Ranted about C and how he was being an ass.
And how he lost 2 of us as his friends before of his idiocy.
Sat around NEX eating dessert anddddddddd!
I told her about the truth reason why I broke up with that sonofabitch.
Come to think of it, she's probably the only one who knows. It's over. I am not seeing him in school.
But I dreamt about it last night. The slapping and all that.
Gosh. It scared the hell out of me.
I don't want to have anything to do with him. I am so scared of bumping into him.
And I don't have anyone to help me if I do. It crosses my mind that he might just run up and kill me when I am alone and he sees me. :/
I need to get over it.
Oh, scars of the past, you just know when to strike, especially when it is hot huh.
Please, I don't want to have anymore nightmares about that asswipe.
1 year of that shit was enough.
Sometimes, I think I try too hard to be strong, weakness seem like I will have to look vulnerable.
I try so hard not to cry, and I just end up brawling.
It's not even funny.
I wonder if you think of me too.
Oh gosh. It's me being pathetic and hapless again.
I need to be stronger than that.
jcxf, come out quick..
Went out sister yesterday. Ranted about C and how he was being an ass.
And how he lost 2 of us as his friends before of his idiocy.
Sat around NEX eating dessert anddddddddd!
I told her about the truth reason why I broke up with that sonofabitch.
Come to think of it, she's probably the only one who knows. It's over. I am not seeing him in school.
But I dreamt about it last night. The slapping and all that.
Gosh. It scared the hell out of me.
I don't want to have anything to do with him. I am so scared of bumping into him.
And I don't have anyone to help me if I do. It crosses my mind that he might just run up and kill me when I am alone and he sees me. :/
I need to get over it.
Oh, scars of the past, you just know when to strike, especially when it is hot huh.
Please, I don't want to have anymore nightmares about that asswipe.
1 year of that shit was enough.