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four days until i begin my new disney life, and how am i feeling right now? terrified. seven months IS a long time. how could i have done this to myself? nothings gonna be the same when i get back. how could i have developed such a good relationship and then screw it over with this. i mean, not like this hasnt been planned for months, but should i really expect it to be okay over this seven month span?
i dont know, im filled with mixed emotions right now. im just frustrated and anxious and worried. there are so many unknowns with this whole move. there are too many questions i can answer with 'i'll find out when i get down there' and i HATE that.
i can definitely say this was a pretty rational decision on my part. i mean, i know its realistically not a bad idea, but im just nervous more than excited. i'm not gonna be by myself because tori is there, but, i know how lonely im going to get. sometimes i feel so good about it like i can't wait to go and then theres times like this where i'm filled with regret. i wish i could see that itll be worth it.
i dont know, im filled with mixed emotions right now. im just frustrated and anxious and worried. there are so many unknowns with this whole move. there are too many questions i can answer with 'i'll find out when i get down there' and i HATE that.
i can definitely say this was a pretty rational decision on my part. i mean, i know its realistically not a bad idea, but im just nervous more than excited. i'm not gonna be by myself because tori is there, but, i know how lonely im going to get. sometimes i feel so good about it like i can't wait to go and then theres times like this where i'm filled with regret. i wish i could see that itll be worth it.