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I havent used this thing in what feels like forever.
things have been keeping me busy.
track ended, thank god.
i picked out my prom dress:
http://www.simplydresses.com/dresses/detail.cfm?key=125032&v=IV&cat=cruise
i wont have a date but whatever.
thats not new.
i miss things
and i miss people.
i always feel so lonely, like i have NOONE.
yeah i have friends.
but are they REALLY my friends.
i can honestly say ambers my ONLY real fucking friend.
its kinda sad when you only have ONE person.
my whole family life is fucked up.
and im sure ill be moving out of monroe soon enough.
its just a game against the clock.
in better news, i made varsity lacrosse.
ahlborns already on my ass telling me i need to cradle better.
im ALMOST failing math11 and chemistry honors.
moms really fucking happy about that.
my road test is scheduled for april 3rd, i cant wait.
the day i pass that shit, i wont be home till that fucking 9oclock curfew the stupid state of ny has placed upon me.
sometimes i feel like, im not really living.
like the things i do arnt really being done.
i wish i could like restart everything, and just HAVE some fun once ina while.
my days are spent trying to cram EVERYTHING in.
i barely do hw anymore, i never study anymore.
i cringe at the thought of real activity and work.
i want to start from a blank canvas.
i want to start with a fresh body.
i need to loose so much weight, all ive been doing is eating.
cause it comforts me.
okay, if i keep going..im gonna get re-addicted to lj.
and i certainly dont want that.
i only came on to check and see what my thoughts were this time LAST year.
adios loves<3
MISS YOU ALLLL!
<3333!
things have been keeping me busy.
track ended, thank god.
i picked out my prom dress:
http://www.simplydresses.com/dresses/detail.cfm?key=125032&v=IV&cat=cruise
i wont have a date but whatever.
thats not new.
i miss things
and i miss people.
i always feel so lonely, like i have NOONE.
yeah i have friends.
but are they REALLY my friends.
i can honestly say ambers my ONLY real fucking friend.
its kinda sad when you only have ONE person.
my whole family life is fucked up.
and im sure ill be moving out of monroe soon enough.
its just a game against the clock.
in better news, i made varsity lacrosse.
ahlborns already on my ass telling me i need to cradle better.
im ALMOST failing math11 and chemistry honors.
moms really fucking happy about that.
my road test is scheduled for april 3rd, i cant wait.
the day i pass that shit, i wont be home till that fucking 9oclock curfew the stupid state of ny has placed upon me.
sometimes i feel like, im not really living.
like the things i do arnt really being done.
i wish i could like restart everything, and just HAVE some fun once ina while.
my days are spent trying to cram EVERYTHING in.
i barely do hw anymore, i never study anymore.
i cringe at the thought of real activity and work.
i want to start from a blank canvas.
i want to start with a fresh body.
i need to loose so much weight, all ive been doing is eating.
cause it comforts me.
okay, if i keep going..im gonna get re-addicted to lj.
and i certainly dont want that.
i only came on to check and see what my thoughts were this time LAST year.
adios loves<3
MISS YOU ALLLL!
<3333!