As my life continues to fall down.
Where to start. How about with the only place I know where to start. My grandmother died yesterday afternoon. The ONE family member I could count on when I needed them is gone. The ONE family member I loved more then life itself, really. She took care of me my entire life. I dont know what I am going to do without her. And now I am faced with homelessness. I have nowhere to go, and no money to..go. I dont know what I am supposed to do and no one else has any idea's either. No, I will not go into a shelter, so cross that out. My grandmother gave me a kitten for my birthday (which is on the 24th) and I'll be DAMNED if I am going to give it up. The family left all the arangements and shit to me and I dont know what the hell I am doing. When my mom died, my grandmother did it, when my dad died my step mom did it, when everyone else died, someone else did it.. now its my turn. I dont know where to start. Sigh. I wish it was me instead of her.