*GASP*
I had the saddest dream last night.
I woke up crying and everything. He kept telling me I wasn't good enough and he liked her more and he never really liked me all that much. He said he'd went on a date with her and she had a tattoo by her...well..you know..and I got mad because that meant he'd had sex with her or something of the sort cuz he'd seen the tattoo. And then we were all dressed up and I kept getting compliments from people saying I was the prettiest girl they'd ever seen...but he didn't think so. He held my hand and we walked through a restaurant and I was crying and whimpering his name...I wanted him to tell me how he felt but he just kept walking while everyone turned and stared at my tear-dripping face...Then there were flashbacks of us. Things that never actually happened in real life but I could have easily wanted them to. Pictures that were never taken but could've been...kisses and moments that never happened that could have..after the flashbacks, I would bring them up and he would just sit there and tell me he really liked her and she was better than I'll ever be. She played soccer and had money and long brown hair and I was just a nothing. I didn't mean anything to him. I told him I knew I was ugly and I was sorry..and I kept telling him I was sorry for everything that I shouldn't have to be sorry about..he just kept saying she was better than me. That I would never live up to what she'll become to him. This just continued throughout the night. In the dream it got so bad that I was yelling things like,"I hope you die" and, "I hate you." It got so bad that I couldn't cry anymore. All I did was sit there and let him fawn over her. I woke up sobbing and now I'm on here...telling "you" my dream...