At home
Yeah i came home from school early so what!
I know, i know i will get behind in my school work and i dont want to go to school. I talked to mrs,u this morning and she isnt going to do anything about it. FUCK MRS.UBAUNKS! And i bet this whole going to see maria thing isnt going to work either.
Well i cryed for twentry minutes after i left her office and then went on to my regular classes.
I walked into Mrs.paxtons room and she said she was worried about me and then out of the blue Micheal burnette this biggest bitch i have ever none yells "Playing hooky were we."
I almost started to cry again.
After class caleb waited for me as i talked to mrs.paxton about how i may not be able to stay after school tomarrow. She asked me if i was okay and i started to choke as i told her i guess. Then she invited me to come live with her and i sorta laughed whatever you want to call it and said no. Then i left and walked with caleb down to the end of the hallway and he asked me if i was sad and said yes caleb i am.
Then i stormed off.
I dont want to go to school tomarrow, but i have too.
I was thinking as i sat in literacy (which was the class that i was last in.. which also happens to be my first class on the team) that i just couldnt stay at school, something bad was going to happen.
Today has been terrible.
I mean something bad did happen today. I saw Kelsey in the Hall and i thought:
"Oh my god, i dont even know what is going on in my own best friends life.."
I have been such a bad friend.
Maybe becuase i have been icolating myself from everyone, i even isolated myself from her or it could be the simple fact that i was not allowed to be on the phone over the weekend i havent talked to her since.
Whatever the reason was i felt terrible. Then i thought of how i could of handled telling Caleb i wasnt okay better. Then i thought of matt, oh god, matt. Out of all the fucking people i could of thought of it had to be Matt.
Then i started thinking about how everyone is so much happier than i am (which is not true i know) and then i just randomly hated everyone. Now everyone wasnt literally everyone. It was just a select few.
Thoughts crossed my mind such as:
"Oh you love to see me missreble dont you?"
"You have always been jealous of me but why.. of what?"
"When its hard on me you just seem to make things harder by rubbing every little good thing that happens to you in my face..thanks alot. I thought (i will not put who i said this about nor will i tell anyone) that you were suppose to help me!"
"Shut up, you know that i'm not happy"
"Why?" (heh.. it crossed my mind what!!)
Okay i am done. I better get going. I am sorry if this has offended anyone in anyway. I cannot control my thoughts and i need to get this down somewere. Yeah i know that i could have done this on word or something but this is what livejournals for right? Anway sorry again.
Gaby
I know, i know i will get behind in my school work and i dont want to go to school. I talked to mrs,u this morning and she isnt going to do anything about it. FUCK MRS.UBAUNKS! And i bet this whole going to see maria thing isnt going to work either.
Well i cryed for twentry minutes after i left her office and then went on to my regular classes.
I walked into Mrs.paxtons room and she said she was worried about me and then out of the blue Micheal burnette this biggest bitch i have ever none yells "Playing hooky were we."
I almost started to cry again.
After class caleb waited for me as i talked to mrs.paxton about how i may not be able to stay after school tomarrow. She asked me if i was okay and i started to choke as i told her i guess. Then she invited me to come live with her and i sorta laughed whatever you want to call it and said no. Then i left and walked with caleb down to the end of the hallway and he asked me if i was sad and said yes caleb i am.
Then i stormed off.
I dont want to go to school tomarrow, but i have too.
I was thinking as i sat in literacy (which was the class that i was last in.. which also happens to be my first class on the team) that i just couldnt stay at school, something bad was going to happen.
Today has been terrible.
I mean something bad did happen today. I saw Kelsey in the Hall and i thought:
"Oh my god, i dont even know what is going on in my own best friends life.."
I have been such a bad friend.
Maybe becuase i have been icolating myself from everyone, i even isolated myself from her or it could be the simple fact that i was not allowed to be on the phone over the weekend i havent talked to her since.
Whatever the reason was i felt terrible. Then i thought of how i could of handled telling Caleb i wasnt okay better. Then i thought of matt, oh god, matt. Out of all the fucking people i could of thought of it had to be Matt.
Then i started thinking about how everyone is so much happier than i am (which is not true i know) and then i just randomly hated everyone. Now everyone wasnt literally everyone. It was just a select few.
Thoughts crossed my mind such as:
"Oh you love to see me missreble dont you?"
"You have always been jealous of me but why.. of what?"
"When its hard on me you just seem to make things harder by rubbing every little good thing that happens to you in my face..thanks alot. I thought (i will not put who i said this about nor will i tell anyone) that you were suppose to help me!"
"Shut up, you know that i'm not happy"
"Why?" (heh.. it crossed my mind what!!)
Okay i am done. I better get going. I am sorry if this has offended anyone in anyway. I cannot control my thoughts and i need to get this down somewere. Yeah i know that i could have done this on word or something but this is what livejournals for right? Anway sorry again.
Gaby