Broken

[miri_cris]

This was a hard SOB to write.
May the inspiration be with me next time. *LOL*

I can't feel what I think I'm feeling now.
After all this time, am I breaking my promise?
Am I risking my heart's safety? And what for?
I don't know even if I mean something to you.
Maybe I'm just a tool, convenient, useful, but a tool nonetheless.
Not emotional strings attached. Without significance.

Am I that stupid? I didn't learn a thing.
It seems like I'm only yearning to be loved.
Or just plain hurt? I can't tell the difference anymore.
Maybe you could teach me what it is.
Perhaps you would love me.
If only you could show me.

Who do I think I'm fooling? You won't.
I'm not worth the hassle. It's complicated for both of us.
I shouldn't get my hopes up. It always ends with sorrow and pain.
But I can't help it, I need it. I just want to feel whole.
Maybe you're the one. How can I not try?
If only you could see me.

You are my perfect mate. The perfect soul.
If only you could show me.
I feel like drowning when I look into your eyes.
If only you could see me.
Maybe... Maybe there's a chance for me.
If only you could love me.

I hope you like it :)