IM A FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok i never post here but i dont have anyone to talk to so just the thought of anyone seeing this might make my mind drift away from the truth. i think no i know i fucked up bad! i did something with no intentions of anything, just as a joke. and megan saw what i did and she is really up set now. she confronted me about it and i couldnt speak there are know words when you hurt someone you love. i just couldnt look her in the eyes and feel right at all. god damnit im a fuck up!!!!!!! i love you megan its just sometimes i dont know where my mind is. i have a lot of things inside me that i hide. that i try to fight but some thoughts are just to hard to face, some thoughts eat at you and you try an try to make them stop. once again I FUCKED UP BAD!!!! this is really going to leave a scar on your heart and i know scars take along time to heal especially when there deep and i know that this scar is deep! im so sorry for what ive done!!! just know i was just jokeing just like i was jokeing when i sent it to the boys and put it on ricky .v's myspace. but i guess theres no excuses for something that hurts. i hope that we can just forget this, i hope..............