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i dont know. jessica is still not talking to me. not having her in my life right now makes me feel like im lacking something. i dont give a fuck if she doesnt care anymore though. cause were the fucking sailors! or so i thought. besides that pasttimes have been fun..pirates day and all..foam diving. but i have this ongoing battle between my heart and my mind. i know what i gotta do but i also have these sudden urges. i dont wanna be like these kids and be satisfied with damn orange county. god thats scary. i wanna get outta here. i hope i get into calarts if anything. i guess i really do want to go to art school more than anything. more than all the drinking, the drugs, my mother. i need to stop living my life for her. i love her. i love her so much...but fucksdaiotera i cant take her emotional baggage anymore. venting over
angry samoans/ smutt peddlers are playing tonight. i hope i can go and kick the shit outta something
angry samoans/ smutt peddlers are playing tonight. i hope i can go and kick the shit outta something