i don't fall; i crash and burn
today was a long day. so much makeup work. blah. In homeroom mr. Hulse stole my walkman..he didn't even do it in his room. i leave everyday and go across the hall. 5 minutes after i had left he came in and took my walk man and made me go back to homeroom. I ate too amny caffeinated mints by accident i just kept eating them. thats what a little less than 4 hours of not-so-good sleep will do. Gabi and I got moved as a unit across the room in math for "multi-tasking" it confuses me. After school was funess. we had a large snowball fight outside the art rooms. my shoes propped open the door and i ran around barefoot until my feet hurt. then the never ending game a squish the lemon..came home, and took a nap from like 6-7.
I can't seem to shake this feeling that has settled over me. any of them. i think i am the most confused person ever right now. between the good things and the bad and the nonthings. Feeling like i need to spin loose. but having things that i refuse to let go of. nothing makes sense anymore. it's all spinning. i need something to stay still so i can hold on. some of what's going on makes me so happy right now. but it all seems to collide and what i think it really is it that Barely anything or anyone in my life is certain i need less uncertainty. then it will all be ok.
I can't seem to shake this feeling that has settled over me. any of them. i think i am the most confused person ever right now. between the good things and the bad and the nonthings. Feeling like i need to spin loose. but having things that i refuse to let go of. nothing makes sense anymore. it's all spinning. i need something to stay still so i can hold on. some of what's going on makes me so happy right now. but it all seems to collide and what i think it really is it that Barely anything or anyone in my life is certain i need less uncertainty. then it will all be ok.