There's no place like home....
I hate the Jungle...I am never going back again. Tonight was horrible. I walked around that place DEAD SOBER for 2 hours BY MYSELF. My car was at NAZ due to some people in my group not being able to get in. Stood in the rain, got ditched by the only 2 people I actually knew there, and got hit on by some player named Joe. YUCK!! Residents have been driving me a bit whacky...seems like some of them are kind of taking advantage of my freidnship with them. Sucks. Really hurts my feelings. So upset, I just wanna hop in bed and ball my freakin' eyes out. At the same time though, I can't. I sometimes feel as if I shouldn't be an RA next year. I feel like I am doing a terrbile job. However, my girls tell me I'm great and that I can't leave. I dunno what to do. I just wanna go home for a night and forget about school, forget about NAZ. Whenever I am home, I have no one to impress, no on to try and be friends with, no guys to impress. Everyone loves me for me and that is where I feel most myself. I forget about the rest of the outside world. I miss it so much. I guess I am just so sick of being played, lied to, and ditched here at NAZ. Most people here are just never true to their word and it's hard to believe any word that comes out of their mouth. Jami and Kayla - thank you so much for everything. You will be getting your reward on Sunday I promise. Well, I am freezing my ass off....I think I am going to go hop into bed. G'night.