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this is what i want to do right now...
i want to buy a one way ticket to any city in europe. leave and never come back.
i dont know what i would do there...i dont know how i would make it..how i would live. what would be the outcome. but i just want to be somewhere else. i want to be away from everything i know. i want to be on my own. i am so sick of everyone telling me i should be on my own taking care of myself. blah de fucking blah. its always something...always it never fucking fails.
IT PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF.
there is always something i could be doing better/different. it makes me feel like shit all the fucking time. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!. fuck everyone. just FUCK YOU!
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT IF I COULD FUCKING MAKE IT ON MY OWN I WOULD STILL BE HERE....THAT ITS A FUCKING PRIVILEGE TO LIVE WITH YOU!
i have no other choice. i'm stuck. i go to school...i work part time...ITS NOT YOUR FUCKING LIFE ITS MINE...
i am stuck in this life. this is me this is my life. no one seems to understand that....everyone thinks i am living the life they used to be in. I COULDNT FIND A DECENT PLACE TO LIVE FOR 250 FUCKING DOLLARS A MONTH IF I WANTED TO.
i want to cry right now. but i want to be the bigger fucking person. seriously. i want to quit
school and quit work and leave and say fuck you.
but the fear of being murder...or failing...and being alone with no options scared out of my mind freaks me out the most...
so i'll just shut my fucking mouth..put my tail between my legs...and keep living this bullshit life i'm living.
i want to buy a one way ticket to any city in europe. leave and never come back.
i dont know what i would do there...i dont know how i would make it..how i would live. what would be the outcome. but i just want to be somewhere else. i want to be away from everything i know. i want to be on my own. i am so sick of everyone telling me i should be on my own taking care of myself. blah de fucking blah. its always something...always it never fucking fails.
IT PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF.
there is always something i could be doing better/different. it makes me feel like shit all the fucking time. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!. fuck everyone. just FUCK YOU!
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT IF I COULD FUCKING MAKE IT ON MY OWN I WOULD STILL BE HERE....THAT ITS A FUCKING PRIVILEGE TO LIVE WITH YOU!
i have no other choice. i'm stuck. i go to school...i work part time...ITS NOT YOUR FUCKING LIFE ITS MINE...
i am stuck in this life. this is me this is my life. no one seems to understand that....everyone thinks i am living the life they used to be in. I COULDNT FIND A DECENT PLACE TO LIVE FOR 250 FUCKING DOLLARS A MONTH IF I WANTED TO.
i want to cry right now. but i want to be the bigger fucking person. seriously. i want to quit
school and quit work and leave and say fuck you.
but the fear of being murder...or failing...and being alone with no options scared out of my mind freaks me out the most...
so i'll just shut my fucking mouth..put my tail between my legs...and keep living this bullshit life i'm living.