Jul 10, 2005 03:32
wow when you dont eat for three days you can feel alcohol.
im hungry im poor i hate my roommates i hate a lot of my friends i hate andy im alone im depressed i hate my job i hate the way i feel i hate waking up everyday i hate my fucking life.
ive finaly realized that im going to feel this way aslong as i live, i always have, and it isnt going away. not even the numa numa video makes me laugh now. fuck.
mostly im scared. really scared. and im not afried of anything in this world but bush as prez and japaness porn. (if you dont know why im afraid of japaness porn your lucky) but im afraid of what im thinking im afraid of what ill do.
Im tired of having to be under the infulence of somthing to feel ok. thats not right.
so God, what now? im here talk to me motherfucker. im tired of talked and not getting an answer. im fucking sick of it. im here but im tired of listing to fucking silence! what now? anthing would help anyfuckingthing!
fuck it im out.