the world is not full of crunchy goodness
My dreams of a nice package and a layoff were dashed this week. I am still employed.
Unfortunately, my project is dead and most of my team members are gone (the cuts didn't single out anyone - most of the engineers and QE engineers, our doc writer and my program manager are all gone). Its sad, when you have worked with someone for so many years (for many of the dead it has been 8-10 years), to see them go under unfortunate circumstances. What is left for my project is packaging up the wreakage and finishing our last real release, figuring out how to finagle new homes and more protection to anyone who remained and learning how to send a product to sustaining. I've made the plan (I know what is getting finished vs dropped) I just don't know the steps to do to pass it off to another group in a few months.
I'm feeling amazingly bitter that another product that was end-of-life'd 18 months ago (they were complete garbage) and replaced with my project is now, deceased with only a couple of customers, better staffed. I can't help but feel if I hadn't pushed concepts like quality and not missing schedules, the people on my team would still have a job.
Mediocrity equals job protection. I feel like their loss of employment was my fault (I should have seen the signs and played it differently).
I've got to get myself under control because I've spent two days with anger simmering just under the surface ready to lash out.
The sad part is that for me is that once I calm back down my work life may be slightly better since I will finally be forced to find a new opportunity (either in sun or outside).
As far as staying inside sun ... all the senior engineers and managers in my area are scheduling one-on-ones with me in the near future (3 principal engineers, my director and my senior director). I've only had two of the talks but in both I've said "I'm not going to be keeping the light on for my dead product" (almost verbatim) and they have answered something like "We don't expect you to, come back in a couple of days and we'll talk about what opportunities we have available".
But its going to take a few days to get back to them, I'm feeling tired.
Unfortunately, my project is dead and most of my team members are gone (the cuts didn't single out anyone - most of the engineers and QE engineers, our doc writer and my program manager are all gone). Its sad, when you have worked with someone for so many years (for many of the dead it has been 8-10 years), to see them go under unfortunate circumstances. What is left for my project is packaging up the wreakage and finishing our last real release, figuring out how to finagle new homes and more protection to anyone who remained and learning how to send a product to sustaining. I've made the plan (I know what is getting finished vs dropped) I just don't know the steps to do to pass it off to another group in a few months.
I'm feeling amazingly bitter that another product that was end-of-life'd 18 months ago (they were complete garbage) and replaced with my project is now, deceased with only a couple of customers, better staffed. I can't help but feel if I hadn't pushed concepts like quality and not missing schedules, the people on my team would still have a job.
Mediocrity equals job protection. I feel like their loss of employment was my fault (I should have seen the signs and played it differently).
I've got to get myself under control because I've spent two days with anger simmering just under the surface ready to lash out.
The sad part is that for me is that once I calm back down my work life may be slightly better since I will finally be forced to find a new opportunity (either in sun or outside).
As far as staying inside sun ... all the senior engineers and managers in my area are scheduling one-on-ones with me in the near future (3 principal engineers, my director and my senior director). I've only had two of the talks but in both I've said "I'm not going to be keeping the light on for my dead product" (almost verbatim) and they have answered something like "We don't expect you to, come back in a couple of days and we'll talk about what opportunities we have available".
But its going to take a few days to get back to them, I'm feeling tired.