Sorry I haven't updated for so long...I'm a terrible person...
Homework has been this big ball and chain on my free time...so I am taking a quick break to update...
what has happened>??
I've been feeling really Lonely lately... and it seems that I end up making a fool of myself...I know it's incredibly self centered of me..but sometimes I feel like if I disapeared..noone would really notice. The other day i eas hanging out with some people..and I just wandered off...and left..just to see, y' know, if I was right...and they just kept walking and talking and laughing....it's the kind of thing that makes me feel like I'm in 7th grade again with all the preps and me as a wanna be prep that always faded into the background. Thankfully I got over that stage and got some better friends..but..I dunno. God I just read this all over and it sounds so whiney...I just needed to get this out there...It was so weird tho..I hung out with some people the other day..and it was nice, y'know i don't care what other people say about them,,because i can be with them and I sort of fit in..and for the first time in like months..i felt like people were actually paying attention to me instead of brushing me off. It was nice. my romance life is so nil lately... i need somebody soon..i'm going into lover withdrawl....and of the two people that actually are like that to my..one is never around...and the other is leaving town really really soon...and he's sort of a slut too...
IO've sort of stopped my sluttinesss lately..and life is really boring...I was talking to charlie a while ago and talking about how uneventful my life is..and he's so fucking popular..I'm sort of jealous...but not enough to really care...well whatever..eek i'm late to class!!!! update later bye!-The porn star
what has happened>??
I've been feeling really Lonely lately... and it seems that I end up making a fool of myself...I know it's incredibly self centered of me..but sometimes I feel like if I disapeared..noone would really notice. The other day i eas hanging out with some people..and I just wandered off...and left..just to see, y' know, if I was right...and they just kept walking and talking and laughing....it's the kind of thing that makes me feel like I'm in 7th grade again with all the preps and me as a wanna be prep that always faded into the background. Thankfully I got over that stage and got some better friends..but..I dunno. God I just read this all over and it sounds so whiney...I just needed to get this out there...It was so weird tho..I hung out with some people the other day..and it was nice, y'know i don't care what other people say about them,,because i can be with them and I sort of fit in..and for the first time in like months..i felt like people were actually paying attention to me instead of brushing me off. It was nice. my romance life is so nil lately... i need somebody soon..i'm going into lover withdrawl....and of the two people that actually are like that to my..one is never around...and the other is leaving town really really soon...and he's sort of a slut too...
IO've sort of stopped my sluttinesss lately..and life is really boring...I was talking to charlie a while ago and talking about how uneventful my life is..and he's so fucking popular..I'm sort of jealous...but not enough to really care...well whatever..eek i'm late to class!!!! update later bye!-The porn star