FIC : I Love You
Title : I Love You
Pairing : Kangin/Yesung
Rating : PG I guess
Summary : 'I love you' the lies he always tell you.
Note : since English is not my native language, I have to apologize for all the mistakes I make. I wish you would accept this and give me some advices ^^
Actually, I'm new with LJ too. I don't know how to use this that much. This is my first fiction I write in English and I know I have made so many mistakes in it. Please correct me if you found my mistakes.
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‘I love you’
The lies he always tell you. His deep voice whispered those sweet lies and pretended that he love you. You knew that so well, but you kept lying to yourself that one day he would really love you. Heechul said you are pathetic and you agreed with him, but still you let everything go on that way.
Everyday he will mock you in front of the camera making fun with you, but you don’t really care if that meant he notice you. Off camera you wish he would come and take care of you, but he didn’t. He always takes care of the members except you. And you told yourself that maybe he thought you can take care of yourself, that you’re a strong one. In the night, he would come to you and make you feel so special. Embraced you, touched you like he never did in front of people and bring both of you to your orgasm. Made you feel like he really love you. But deep inside, your mind said it wasn’t true.
‘What is the truth then?’
You keep asking yourself.
‘The truth is he doesn’t love you.’
You already knew that. You walked to Heechul who glared at him and looked like he was planning to tear him in pieces. You hugged the older from behind and said don’t. The red head turned to him and wiped the tear you didn’t know when it started to fall.
‘Just stop it’
Heechul told you with his rare soft voice. His hands caressed your back while you hid your face at the crook of his neck. You could feel the worry glances from your band mates, but you couldn’t feel his. The older’s head turned somewhere and not too long Hankyung came to you. He embraced the smaller dongsaeng, you, so tight. His big hand patted your head, tried to comfort you.
‘You need to stop this, Sungie-ah. We both couldn’t stand it anymore, or else we’re gonna give him some lessons for sure.’
You knew what he meant. His smooth voice lets you know how tired you really are. Even if they were in a weird position, you still know he didn’t care.
‘I will. I must end it.’
You murmured and used your small hand to wipe your tearful face. Small smile placed on your rosy lips. They smiled back and told you to get changed. You obeyed them and started to change into your casual clothes. They both were waiting for you while the members started to go to their cars. You wished that he would come and take you with him, but he wasn’t. He just walked among the other and was out of your sight without a glance. You sighed and walked with them to the oldest’s beautiful car.
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The night has come. You decide to wait for him, to talk to him, so you stay awake. You sit up against the headboard and look at the dazzling sky full with stars. The moon shines so bright tonight, you think. You practice your lines in your mind and think about what’s gonna happened after this day. The sound of the open door interrupts you and you already know who. You turn to face the younger that sit on the edge of your bed before stare at your blanket. You need to talk to him, you take a deep breath. Slowly, you look at his eyes.
‘Youngwoon-ah, we…’
‘I don’t know you can be slut sometimes’
He interrupts you with his harsh words. Your eyes widen with surprise. He never ever talk to you like this.
‘W-what do you mean?’
‘What do I mean? You’re so sly. Pretending to be an innocent while you are flirting with someone else. Did Heechul make you feel that good, huh? The thing I gave you wasn’t enough, right? So you have to let those Heechul and Hankyung filled you.’
Before you can realize, your small hand meet his face. You little eyes full with tear and hurt. Kangin lifts his hand to caress his bruised cheek. His eyes let you know that you are in danger, but before you can react, he pins you up against the wall roughly. You gasp because of the pain and he swallows it when his lips contact your lips in fierce way. You try to escape from him but he’s too strong. You gather all your might and push him away. He fall back on the floor and you start to run. You run pass Eunhyuk who battles with Donghae on the video game. Some of them shouts your name and asks where you are going. You don’t answer and speed up because you know he will hunt you down. You know you’re right when you hear the stomped feet after you and someone calls him name. You run to the higher floor and unlock the door to meet with Heechul’s surprised eyes.
‘W-what are you doing here?’
You don’t answer when the older hears some yell behind you. He pulls you into the dorm and drags you to his room.
‘It’s him ,right?’
You try to answer the question but your body doesn’t let you, you’re out of breath. The only thing you can do is gather the oxygen as much as you can. He pushes you to his bed, lets you sit on the edge of it. His beautiful hand caresses your wet cheeks and bruises lips.
‘Y-youngwoon…’
Seems like the older understands the situation, he turns to his night stand and picks up his phone. You watch him texting someone, and then the door is knocked, roughly.
‘Jongwoon, I know you’re in there.’
Both of you turn to the door: You with frightened face while the older with angry face. The knocks still go on and he keeps shouting.
‘Get out of there, or I will break this damn door’
Suddenly, the door is opened. But the one that stand behind isn’t the one he’s looking for. Heechul stares at him like he is some kinds of bacteria that he wants to kill it. His beautiful hand clasps on his phone while he glares at the one who tries to get in his room.
‘Get out of my way, hyung. I want my Jongwoon’
‘Your Jongwoon? Funny. If he’s really yours, then what the heck is he doing up here?’
Heechul asks with cold voice. He glances at you, his dongsaeng, which your face in your palm, your shoulder is shaking slightly as you cry.
‘It’s not your business. Just move, I want to talk to him’
Kaning is stubborn, and that makes Heechul want to explode. But He knows his beloved dongsaeng doesn’t want it to be that way. He tries to calm down. But when Kangin pushes him hard, his feet meet his stomach immediately. Kangin’s hand is on his belly as he sits on the floor with pain draw on his face.
‘Don’t you dare try to get in my room, or I…’
He didn’t finish his word when he feels some warmth on his shoulder. The older found you standing behind him. Your eyes say something to him before walking to stand by his side. You look at him, the one who still on the floor, he stares back. You bring a sad smile and tell him what you were practice to say.
‘Youngwoon-ah…I-it’s..over.’
You’re trying so hard to control your voice and your tear. You see confusion in his eyes, but you have to go on.
‘It hurts…so much. I can’t bear it anymore, Youngwoon-ah. It’s too much. I-I know… I’m not enough for you.’
‘What do you mean, Jongwoon? I don’t understand’
‘Let me go, Youngwoon-ah. If you don’t love me, just let me go’
Finally, you can’t hold back anymore. No words come out of your mouth as you cry, every sight is blurring because of the tear that keep falling from your eyes, your legs feel so weak so you end up sitting on the floor. Heechul glares at him before turns to take care of you. Left the other adsorbs those words into his brain, and his heart behind.
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