How To Take The Pain Away...
Title : How To Take The Pain Away...
Author :
whipcream_soda a.k.a. ME!
Pairing : Broken!KiSung [Kibum/Yesung] [a/n : only in this part]
Rating : PG-13
Genre : Angst...which I don't know why I always start my fic with angst = =
Summary : His love told him to trust him. But when he actually did, his reward wasn't the one he deserved to get. [well, I sucked at summary]
A/N : In this chaper, it would be KiSung...but I have admit that I didn't decide who gonna be the main couple yet. So,....good news, you can request what couple you want to read. But!!! I only write Bottom!Yesung. Top!Sungie isn't an option in my mind, which I don't have any reasons why he's so uke for me. I just can't imagine that, so sorry for the Top!Yesung fans.
P.S This is Yesungie POV, italic is Kibum POV
You looked at him, peeking on him. His lips captured some guy’s. You felt your tear started to prick in your crescent moon eyes. Slowly, you picked up your phone, your small finger pressed on quick dial. You watched him gave an annoying sigh before slid his hand in his pocket to grab his phone.
‘Yobosaeyo?’
‘Kibum-ah, it’s hyung.’
You used all your will to not let your voice shaking, it’s so hard but you knew you could do it.
‘What is it?’
You tried to smile as you were talking, so your voice would be normal. Even though your hand now clenching at the fabric over your heart as you felt pain burning inside.
‘Where are you?’
‘I already told you I have late schedule tonight. I’m sorry, I have to go.’
He cut the connection. Your hand fell from your ear to your side and you slowly let yourself fell to the cold floor as you were crying. It was now or you would always hurt like this over and over again. You cleaned out your tears with your sleeve and took a deep breath. Slowly, you walked out of the dark corner you’ve been hiding to see his hand travelled up and down that boy’s body. His eyes widen and he quickly let go of the boy. You saw confuse in the strange boy’s eyes before he turned to see you. You weakly smiled at him before facing your lover.
‘W-what are you doing here?’
He stuttered. You chuckled, he never stuttered. Your lover was Kim Kibum, the most mysterious actor in the world was stuttering when you caught him with some other guy. How funny!
‘To know the truth I deserve to. The truth you’ve been hiding from me. You told me to trust you. And when I do have faith in you, this is what I’ve got?’
Your voice was so calm and normal, even your face didn’t show any sign of emotion, but your inner is burning. Kibum walked to you, staring at you.
‘Even in the time like this, your face remains still. No tears, no emotions…nothing. You never give me a clue that you love me, want me. You don’t say it, don’t show it. That’s why I’m here, because I want someone that wants me like I do.’
He said simply. You shook your head and looked into his eyes before gave him your genuine smile. You caressed his face with your cute small hand he always says he loves them.
‘For all the time we’re together, you know nothing about me. I think it’s time for me to go. I wish you guys have fun and I’m so sorry to interrupt you. Goodbye, Kibum-ah.’
You turned around and walked away.
You watched him walked away, your eyes stuck with him till he was out of sight.
‘Hey, stranger!’
You turned around to look at the stranger you dragged out of the club a few minutes ago. He now was leaning against the wall, folding his arms.
‘If I already have someone…so gorgeous, so sexy, so fuckable and really love me like that, I would need no one else. Now I feel sorry for you for losing him.’
You felt your temper rise quickly and you glared at him.
‘How could you know he loves me or not when you don’t even know him? I’ve known him for 3 years and I don’t even know what he really feel about me.’
That stranger chuckled and shrugged before walked to stand right in front of you. He smirked.
‘Just look into his eyes. Even though you’re trying so hard to hide your feeling, but your eyes can’t lie. You’re an idiot to not notice how much he fall for you and what he’s feeling right now. You’re blind, got your eyes surgery. I have to go. Good bye, stranger. I wish next time you wouldn’t be blind like this.’
He too left you be by yourself, thinking, wondering if the love of your life really left you.
You heard the door opened but you didn’t care. Your hands threw everything you need into your luggage. The tear was already dry but your eyes still red and swollen. He walked into the bedroom to see you packed your thing. Suddenly, he hold you from behind, buried his head at the crook of your neck. You felt him breathe in your scent.
‘I’m so sorry, Sungie. I’m so sorry for not know how much you love me, sorry for cheating on you. Please forgive me. I’m a fool and I was blind.’
You stood still, did no moves. He slowly loosened his arms and looked at you.
‘And what? You suddenly realized that I love you when I caught you with someone else?’
You said bitterly. It was hurt so much and you knew you couldn’t take it anymore. If you decided to come back, he would cheat again and again. You didn’t want to be a fool anymore. He shook his head and brought your hand to cup his face.
‘Just give me one more chance, please.’
His hand now caressed your cheek as he spoke.
‘Can we…start it over again? I…I want to know you more, to learn everything about you.’
‘Three years isn’t enough for you?’
His face dropped a little. You tried to break free but still, you were in his arms.
‘Let me go, Kibum. I love you, I trust you and my reward is you cheating on me. I was left alone at home when you have fun with some other guys. I don’t want to be a fool anymore. You’re not blind, Kibum-ah. The one who blind is me.’
That was the first time you let him know how you were feeling. Your voice was shaking, your eyes were wavering and full with hurt and pain. His eyes grew wide before he smiled softly.
‘Even I do anything, everything for you…you won’t stay, right??’
Hesitantly, you nodded. He pulled you close and held you tight, like he never wanted to let go of you. He sweetly kissed your silky hair and your forehead, the tip of his thump brushed over your swollen eyes.
‘Can I have….my one last kiss?’
His voice was noticeably shaking. You didn’t answer, just rounded your arms around his neck and brought him to the passionate kiss. The tear ran down from both of you, washed each other’s faces but you didn’t care. Slowly, you broke the kiss. His arms still clung around your waist.
‘I-I have to go…’
‘Where? Do you want me to take you there?’
You knew he wanted to be with you till the last minute and so did you. But you scared of your heart, you scared you couldn’t go, couldn’t leave him, so you shook your head and gave him your sweet smile.
‘Hyukjae will come pick me up.’
‘So you move back to the dorm.....let me help you pack you thing. It’s the last thing I can do for you.’
You didn’t have any reasons to go against him, so you let him help you pack. The door was rang and you looked at each other. The time had come, he helped you carry your luggage to the door. You opened it to see Hyukjae standing in front of it. He greeted you and glared at your…ex-boyfriend as he handed him your luggage.
‘Let’s go. Teukie hyung is waiting.’
You walked out of the room that once was yours and his, you turned around to look at him. It hurted so much to see him broke down like he never did. You gave him a quick kiss, your small hand caressed his handsome face. You stared at each other before you turned around and followed your dongsaeng. Every steps caused you pain, but you have to. You could feel his gaze followed you too. The distance from his room and the parking lot seemed to be further than ever. The time passed by so slow for you to feel every painful second. When you got to the car, Leeteuk held you tight and said everything gonna be ok, said that you would find someone that really love you and treat you right. You cried on his shoulder and wished the pain would quickly fade away.
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How is it????
I hope you enjoy it ^^
Comment is love
so I can know what you think about this
my grammar improve a bit [or not?] but well, I tried my best...so don't bash me ><
Author :
whipcream_soda a.k.a. ME!
Pairing : Broken!KiSung [Kibum/Yesung] [a/n : only in this part]
Rating : PG-13
Genre : Angst...which I don't know why I always start my fic with angst = =
Summary : His love told him to trust him. But when he actually did, his reward wasn't the one he deserved to get. [well, I sucked at summary]
A/N : In this chaper, it would be KiSung...but I have admit that I didn't decide who gonna be the main couple yet. So,....good news, you can request what couple you want to read. But!!! I only write Bottom!Yesung. Top!Sungie isn't an option in my mind, which I don't have any reasons why he's so uke for me. I just can't imagine that, so sorry for the Top!Yesung fans.
P.S This is Yesungie POV, italic is Kibum POV
You looked at him, peeking on him. His lips captured some guy’s. You felt your tear started to prick in your crescent moon eyes. Slowly, you picked up your phone, your small finger pressed on quick dial. You watched him gave an annoying sigh before slid his hand in his pocket to grab his phone.
‘Yobosaeyo?’
‘Kibum-ah, it’s hyung.’
You used all your will to not let your voice shaking, it’s so hard but you knew you could do it.
‘What is it?’
You tried to smile as you were talking, so your voice would be normal. Even though your hand now clenching at the fabric over your heart as you felt pain burning inside.
‘Where are you?’
‘I already told you I have late schedule tonight. I’m sorry, I have to go.’
He cut the connection. Your hand fell from your ear to your side and you slowly let yourself fell to the cold floor as you were crying. It was now or you would always hurt like this over and over again. You cleaned out your tears with your sleeve and took a deep breath. Slowly, you walked out of the dark corner you’ve been hiding to see his hand travelled up and down that boy’s body. His eyes widen and he quickly let go of the boy. You saw confuse in the strange boy’s eyes before he turned to see you. You weakly smiled at him before facing your lover.
‘W-what are you doing here?’
He stuttered. You chuckled, he never stuttered. Your lover was Kim Kibum, the most mysterious actor in the world was stuttering when you caught him with some other guy. How funny!
‘To know the truth I deserve to. The truth you’ve been hiding from me. You told me to trust you. And when I do have faith in you, this is what I’ve got?’
Your voice was so calm and normal, even your face didn’t show any sign of emotion, but your inner is burning. Kibum walked to you, staring at you.
‘Even in the time like this, your face remains still. No tears, no emotions…nothing. You never give me a clue that you love me, want me. You don’t say it, don’t show it. That’s why I’m here, because I want someone that wants me like I do.’
He said simply. You shook your head and looked into his eyes before gave him your genuine smile. You caressed his face with your cute small hand he always says he loves them.
‘For all the time we’re together, you know nothing about me. I think it’s time for me to go. I wish you guys have fun and I’m so sorry to interrupt you. Goodbye, Kibum-ah.’
You turned around and walked away.
You watched him walked away, your eyes stuck with him till he was out of sight.
‘Hey, stranger!’
You turned around to look at the stranger you dragged out of the club a few minutes ago. He now was leaning against the wall, folding his arms.
‘If I already have someone…so gorgeous, so sexy, so fuckable and really love me like that, I would need no one else. Now I feel sorry for you for losing him.’
You felt your temper rise quickly and you glared at him.
‘How could you know he loves me or not when you don’t even know him? I’ve known him for 3 years and I don’t even know what he really feel about me.’
That stranger chuckled and shrugged before walked to stand right in front of you. He smirked.
‘Just look into his eyes. Even though you’re trying so hard to hide your feeling, but your eyes can’t lie. You’re an idiot to not notice how much he fall for you and what he’s feeling right now. You’re blind, got your eyes surgery. I have to go. Good bye, stranger. I wish next time you wouldn’t be blind like this.’
He too left you be by yourself, thinking, wondering if the love of your life really left you.
You heard the door opened but you didn’t care. Your hands threw everything you need into your luggage. The tear was already dry but your eyes still red and swollen. He walked into the bedroom to see you packed your thing. Suddenly, he hold you from behind, buried his head at the crook of your neck. You felt him breathe in your scent.
‘I’m so sorry, Sungie. I’m so sorry for not know how much you love me, sorry for cheating on you. Please forgive me. I’m a fool and I was blind.’
You stood still, did no moves. He slowly loosened his arms and looked at you.
‘And what? You suddenly realized that I love you when I caught you with someone else?’
You said bitterly. It was hurt so much and you knew you couldn’t take it anymore. If you decided to come back, he would cheat again and again. You didn’t want to be a fool anymore. He shook his head and brought your hand to cup his face.
‘Just give me one more chance, please.’
His hand now caressed your cheek as he spoke.
‘Can we…start it over again? I…I want to know you more, to learn everything about you.’
‘Three years isn’t enough for you?’
His face dropped a little. You tried to break free but still, you were in his arms.
‘Let me go, Kibum. I love you, I trust you and my reward is you cheating on me. I was left alone at home when you have fun with some other guys. I don’t want to be a fool anymore. You’re not blind, Kibum-ah. The one who blind is me.’
That was the first time you let him know how you were feeling. Your voice was shaking, your eyes were wavering and full with hurt and pain. His eyes grew wide before he smiled softly.
‘Even I do anything, everything for you…you won’t stay, right??’
Hesitantly, you nodded. He pulled you close and held you tight, like he never wanted to let go of you. He sweetly kissed your silky hair and your forehead, the tip of his thump brushed over your swollen eyes.
‘Can I have….my one last kiss?’
His voice was noticeably shaking. You didn’t answer, just rounded your arms around his neck and brought him to the passionate kiss. The tear ran down from both of you, washed each other’s faces but you didn’t care. Slowly, you broke the kiss. His arms still clung around your waist.
‘I-I have to go…’
‘Where? Do you want me to take you there?’
You knew he wanted to be with you till the last minute and so did you. But you scared of your heart, you scared you couldn’t go, couldn’t leave him, so you shook your head and gave him your sweet smile.
‘Hyukjae will come pick me up.’
‘So you move back to the dorm.....let me help you pack you thing. It’s the last thing I can do for you.’
You didn’t have any reasons to go against him, so you let him help you pack. The door was rang and you looked at each other. The time had come, he helped you carry your luggage to the door. You opened it to see Hyukjae standing in front of it. He greeted you and glared at your…ex-boyfriend as he handed him your luggage.
‘Let’s go. Teukie hyung is waiting.’
You walked out of the room that once was yours and his, you turned around to look at him. It hurted so much to see him broke down like he never did. You gave him a quick kiss, your small hand caressed his handsome face. You stared at each other before you turned around and followed your dongsaeng. Every steps caused you pain, but you have to. You could feel his gaze followed you too. The distance from his room and the parking lot seemed to be further than ever. The time passed by so slow for you to feel every painful second. When you got to the car, Leeteuk held you tight and said everything gonna be ok, said that you would find someone that really love you and treat you right. You cried on his shoulder and wished the pain would quickly fade away.
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How is it????
I hope you enjoy it ^^
Comment is love
so I can know what you think about this
my grammar improve a bit [or not?] but well, I tried my best...so don't bash me ><