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[whipchick]

We walk into the gym and scan for mat space, Kim’s aerial hoop over her shoulder, my aerial silk in my arms.

Aerialists hang from the peg wall, doing pike-ups and hoping the Cirque coaches will notice them. Big-bodied catchers wear tank tops and striped toe-socks. Short, muscled flyers with linebacker shoulders and gnarled ankles look at us,

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[similiesslip]

It's a big part of growing up, realizing you are "not the best." What you do after can really shape your life.

You handled this wonderfully. Part of this kind of realization that decides whether you grow or get bitter is being honest with yourself. You obviously did/do that.

This reminded me of one of my sisters. She is a good ballet dancer/teacher. However, when she went to college, she tried out and didn't make it as part of the performing group (though she could have taken lessons.) This upset her a lot. She told everyone they "refused" to take her because of her stand against immodest clothes..and then quit college after a year and hasn't returned yet.

It made me sad. I guess it wasn't meant to be. She claims to be happy now and that she hated college. I just, I ...hope she grew as much as she could. Some lessons, if you don't learn them the first time, you have to see them again. However, she is young.

My sweet sister. I am going to miss her so much (she's moving to China.)

I admire how, in this memory, you knew your limits, but still pushed yourself. That is a lesson I need to learn/work on!

[whipchick]

Thanks - it's been a good journey for me to discover that my strengths are more in managing, scripting, and verbal performing, and I can do a bit of physical circus and hire people to do the rest :)

I hope your sister finds what she needs - you're a great example for her.