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so my picture is so old i realized. so is my last entry. february? are you serious? well there's just too much to catch up on so i'll vent about things happening NOW. college. so far its not that much work, but i'm sure i'll be biting my tongue when i have a bunch of papers due in a few weeks. i don't like feeling used, even though..i use...too. hm umm i recently went out to dinner with this guy i met at natali's party. it was a really nice night but i just i'm not attracted to him. i feel bad. i told yogi about it and he said that if he were a girl he'd use his boobs to get him a free meal all the time. haha i love him. i think it's just too soon to see other people liek that. i mean i guess i wanted to cuz i was bored and what else was i going to do? get drunk in milwaukee? DUH. speaking of which. i drink too much. seriously, smacking my head sooo hard is the story of my freaking life lately. ugh. i haven't needed any showers recently, but we will see.. i will never say i'm out of that phase because... hell to the no i'm not. i miss lauren. uggh especially when i have nothing to do. we would always do nothing together. ugh. being single i am so conscious of how i look lately. i HATE caring how i look. i guess being single after so long i just don't want to be alone. how weird of a thing to think but i worry a lot. and about retarded things. so britney spears is terrible. but yet i love her to death! not her, but i seriously will listen to her music until my dying day i'm telling you. her performance was whack but honestly, her body..as fat as people said it looked..thats pretty much how mine looks soo people need to give the poor girl a break! ( i might be saying that on a count of me, not her) anyway. i hate racine. i hate my life at the moment. probably because i'm home all alone with one class today AND its raining. fuck this.