Why god why?
Why do i have to do this every time? Why do I have to let my guard down at the most inopportune time possible? Why do I swear every time that I will never let it happen again, and then do? Why do i have to whine so much?
So today really sucked. It's been so long since I have crashed this hard, mostly because I have never let myself be happy enough to crash this hard. And I realize, why do I ever let myself be happy? It only leads to pain.
I started smoking tonight. I made it 21 years without more than a single puff of a cigarette one night I was really drunk and depressed, but now I started. Less than a week ago I was thinking to myself about how no one over 18 would actually start smoking, and now I am.
Ha! I'm going to destroy your body Tom and there is nothing you can do to stop me.
*Tear*
So today really sucked. It's been so long since I have crashed this hard, mostly because I have never let myself be happy enough to crash this hard. And I realize, why do I ever let myself be happy? It only leads to pain.
I started smoking tonight. I made it 21 years without more than a single puff of a cigarette one night I was really drunk and depressed, but now I started. Less than a week ago I was thinking to myself about how no one over 18 would actually start smoking, and now I am.
Ha! I'm going to destroy your body Tom and there is nothing you can do to stop me.
*Tear*