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I just wrote out another long thing about this whole Wayne deal. I will spare you the details. Everything still sucks, but I don't blame Adam and you shouldn't either. He is doing the best he can. He really is stuck. Erick is incapable of focusing on what really needs to be done and Wayne is unwilling to do it on his own. We are both stuck. At least after last night's talk, I feel more unified with Adam than before. I am not so scared that my husband is becoming content in this living situation. He hates it as much as I do and is doing everything that he can to make it all go away.

I am still moping because I know that when I bring my daughter home, that drunk will still be in my house.

I have let him ruin enough of my pregnancy. I don't know how, but I am going to make it so that he doesn't ruin her life, too.