Don't Give Up
Well, I forgot most of what I was going to write about. Got a phone call, so all my thoughts just flew out. But, I shall try anyway!
Tonight was an okay night overall, I suppose. Started out with Outback, which was yummy as always. Our waiter was extremely slow in getting our stuff, but it gave us more time to talk I guess. It always seems that whenever we go to Outback or anywhere, really, to eat, I'm always the center of attention. Like tonight, I was the one who everyone directed their stories or jokes to, and it's all good and everything, but I get tired of smiling so much, or trying to involve a sullen Breanna and a silent David. Afterwards, I drove over to Breanna's house, where we are all meeting to take one car to Rich's. Inside Breanna's room, Chris kept looking to me, as if he didn't want to offend me by saying or doing anything, or maybe he was just uncomfortable being in such closed spaces with me and Breanna. I dunno. Jess and Jason came over, we hung out for a bit playing with kittens and checking the weather. Supposed to pour, but we go anyway. This is where the tables turned and I was suddenly the odd one out. I was the one trailing behind and left out of everything. Kinda made me fidget, since not only was I basically the third (or fifth) wheel with two couples in my group, but all around no one was without someone to trail behind or in front of clasping hands. I'm sentimental, so little things like that make a big impact on me. So Rich's and the trip home was where I got to stand or sit around, being quiet, how I normally am, I suppose. I tried to get in the middle, if only to make the two couples interact, but it didn't go so well. Oh well, things happen and I really don't care. I said bye to Chris tonight when we got back to Breanna's so I would have to drive those 20 minutes just to spend 5 minutes there only to be driven out by the searching stares from Breanna, and the small, almost shy smiles from Chris. That makes me so freaking uncomfortable. UGH. But, Jayvin called me tonight, so all is well. Honestly, tonight all during dinner, I was wrestling with the idea of making a sudden road trip up there, if only for the rest of the weekend. Him not feeling well at all this last week has really gotten to me. But, I decided against it, mostly because I'm broke. Boo money. Boo October.
Now off to read that wonderful book, and fall asleep with it. I do that too much.
Tonight was an okay night overall, I suppose. Started out with Outback, which was yummy as always. Our waiter was extremely slow in getting our stuff, but it gave us more time to talk I guess. It always seems that whenever we go to Outback or anywhere, really, to eat, I'm always the center of attention. Like tonight, I was the one who everyone directed their stories or jokes to, and it's all good and everything, but I get tired of smiling so much, or trying to involve a sullen Breanna and a silent David. Afterwards, I drove over to Breanna's house, where we are all meeting to take one car to Rich's. Inside Breanna's room, Chris kept looking to me, as if he didn't want to offend me by saying or doing anything, or maybe he was just uncomfortable being in such closed spaces with me and Breanna. I dunno. Jess and Jason came over, we hung out for a bit playing with kittens and checking the weather. Supposed to pour, but we go anyway. This is where the tables turned and I was suddenly the odd one out. I was the one trailing behind and left out of everything. Kinda made me fidget, since not only was I basically the third (or fifth) wheel with two couples in my group, but all around no one was without someone to trail behind or in front of clasping hands. I'm sentimental, so little things like that make a big impact on me. So Rich's and the trip home was where I got to stand or sit around, being quiet, how I normally am, I suppose. I tried to get in the middle, if only to make the two couples interact, but it didn't go so well. Oh well, things happen and I really don't care. I said bye to Chris tonight when we got back to Breanna's so I would have to drive those 20 minutes just to spend 5 minutes there only to be driven out by the searching stares from Breanna, and the small, almost shy smiles from Chris. That makes me so freaking uncomfortable. UGH. But, Jayvin called me tonight, so all is well. Honestly, tonight all during dinner, I was wrestling with the idea of making a sudden road trip up there, if only for the rest of the weekend. Him not feeling well at all this last week has really gotten to me. But, I decided against it, mostly because I'm broke. Boo money. Boo October.
Now off to read that wonderful book, and fall asleep with it. I do that too much.