Broken
would i really go to hell for shooting myself in the mouth to escape the pain of reality. i hate being here, im not happy. i only pretend to be ok, i dont provoke my problems by blabbing them. i need help. my world just fell. it was slightly hanging above destruction, now it has fallen. drugs, job, money, mom bitching, dad, no more michael ;( ,tension with everything, i could go on. it is not worth it. i need help. i know no longer if one's sincerity is only trying to hurt me. i hurt somebody and it blows up in my face every day after it happened. i'll never live it down i know. at least maybe i could try to avoid it at all costs. well i was not excused from adkins' exam, i now have a C. i have a B in english for not reading an AR book b/c i was too worried about michael. no more missing school, i need help. i need help. im lost. i cant explain to others what im going through. i dont even know what's wrong, im not blaming michael, i think it will better with him gone, he should stay gone. he only hurt me, he made me realize some things and it was a learning experience, only it feels like a bad one now. im leaving nothing is worth it, i need help. please before im gone. . . . . .
what now?
farewell
what now?
farewell