DONT STOP BELIEVIN
wow havent writen in this thing in a while...my life is just that boring.
so ive realized that this halloween i have gone to absolutely NO hauted houses or anything! its so sad...i havent even carved my pumpkin yet! i was supposed to during the white sox game but that didnt happen..too much was going on.
i thought today was a good day untill 7th period when my mind started racing. i got frustrated on the fact that ever since i was little, i was always the one getting shut down. thats why im always so defensive. i thought that was working and made people back off. then my good friend brian told me thats what makes me an easy target. idk what to do anymore. i know people will just think that im being over sensitive but how would you feel if you were with a group of your "friends" yet you never say a word for fear of being ridiculed. when you finally gain enough courage to say something, people tell you to shut the fuck up right away and that im stupid. how the hell would that make you feel? if i annoy you or bother you in some way omg let me know cause im sick of opening my mouth and having people roll their eyes at me. im pretty aware that i try to hard to make people like me and that makes me very annoying which in turn makes the people that im trying so hard to be friends with dislike me. its a twisted cycle but that is what i thought about. when i realized all this, it made me grateful for the friends i actually have and you know who you are.
ok im done with my bitching. i just needed to get this out somehow.
so ive realized that this halloween i have gone to absolutely NO hauted houses or anything! its so sad...i havent even carved my pumpkin yet! i was supposed to during the white sox game but that didnt happen..too much was going on.
i thought today was a good day untill 7th period when my mind started racing. i got frustrated on the fact that ever since i was little, i was always the one getting shut down. thats why im always so defensive. i thought that was working and made people back off. then my good friend brian told me thats what makes me an easy target. idk what to do anymore. i know people will just think that im being over sensitive but how would you feel if you were with a group of your "friends" yet you never say a word for fear of being ridiculed. when you finally gain enough courage to say something, people tell you to shut the fuck up right away and that im stupid. how the hell would that make you feel? if i annoy you or bother you in some way omg let me know cause im sick of opening my mouth and having people roll their eyes at me. im pretty aware that i try to hard to make people like me and that makes me very annoying which in turn makes the people that im trying so hard to be friends with dislike me. its a twisted cycle but that is what i thought about. when i realized all this, it made me grateful for the friends i actually have and you know who you are.
ok im done with my bitching. i just needed to get this out somehow.