ehhh
So I'm working again, at a salon. I'm training to become a colorist. I'm the only one out of the other 3 assistants who actually has my license so they are hoping to give me a chair asap. It sucks, I think I've been to the beach 2wice so far this so-called summer. I miss so many people and this always happens when you get into a relationship. I try to see the little friends I do have as much as I can, but lately I have been so tired. Shaun and I got into a really bad fight yesterday. It was my fault and I was in tears all day, all night, and all this morning. I don't want to lose him. I showed him an ugly side of me that I thought had dissapeared a long time ago. Why do I get so insecure and have such trust issues?? He treats me like gold, seriously he does. Since day 1, he always holds the door open for me, ALWAYS. How many ex boyfriends ever did that?? He's my best friend. I need to give him so much more credit than I do because he always listens to me and no matter what is going on with him, he puts me first and tries to make me smile or laugh. We are coming up on 8 months already. It feels longer in ways because we live together. I just hope that whatever funk I've been in goes away soon. This always happens in cycles...and to be honest I think it's the new pill I've been on for my birth control. Anyways working all week and then I have a 4 day weekend for the fourth. Hopefully we go out east to the wine vineyards :)