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"it's a bit sad."
"wait, sad that you've never done it before or sad to watch alone?"
"to watch alone. who does that, really? it's a bit sad, isn't it?"
but in all honesty, it really is not that bad.
yesterday i went to watch contagion on my own and it felt so natural. going up to the empty theatre and discovering my seat was right in the middle of the screen and then waiting as the theatre fills up with more people. it felt strangely nice. i don't know how people see doing things alone as sad. maybe it sounds sad but i don't think it really is sad at all. it makes me feel like i'm carrying a little secret around that nobody knows.
been spending so much time with people everyday, it feels fucking good to do some things on your own (and for yourself) sometimes. i'm starting to really enjoy being on my own. definitely much less to disappoint, fuck disappointing people/people disappointed with you. i really don't think i can take a day without at least a few hours with myself, i might go insane.
"wait, sad that you've never done it before or sad to watch alone?"
"to watch alone. who does that, really? it's a bit sad, isn't it?"
but in all honesty, it really is not that bad.
yesterday i went to watch contagion on my own and it felt so natural. going up to the empty theatre and discovering my seat was right in the middle of the screen and then waiting as the theatre fills up with more people. it felt strangely nice. i don't know how people see doing things alone as sad. maybe it sounds sad but i don't think it really is sad at all. it makes me feel like i'm carrying a little secret around that nobody knows.
been spending so much time with people everyday, it feels fucking good to do some things on your own (and for yourself) sometimes. i'm starting to really enjoy being on my own. definitely much less to disappoint, fuck disappointing people/people disappointed with you. i really don't think i can take a day without at least a few hours with myself, i might go insane.