Confuzzled
I think i'm very nearly completely done unpacking. I've gotta find places for a few things. There's a shelf that isn't quite in place that will help with that. Can't wait to be done. then there are like three or four mostly empty bags that I have to figure out what to do with the little things in them. Probably can mostly be thrown away, but we'll see. So glad it's almost over.
Candace is home now too, so poor Bails is back in defensive, watchful, don't want to let anyone touch me mode. I'm sure once he gets used to Candace and Coco he'll be fine again. At least now he's used to Dawn and Chopper. I think he actually likes Chopper. Probably mostly because he's not alone all day anymore.
New dance lessons start tonight. I had signed up for 2 classes, but I think i'm only going to take the one. Haven't paid yet, so that shouldn't be a problem. I dunno we'll see how I feel about it tonight. I haven't been going to the dances recently because of abnormal circumstances on the particular nights. It kinda sucks, 'cause i miss it. I have to make sure I go next week. No excuses for not going.
Yay, I have a riding lesson tomorrow too! I haven't had a lesson in a while. Mostly because of the money situation. I've got a show coming up on the 29th, so I need to see if there's anything she sees that i'm doing that can be fixed. Any one who wants to come watch the show is welcome to come. Let me know and I can get you directions or an address, whichever you prefer.
So much going on in my head. It's a huge mess in there and i don't know where to begin to clean it up. Not that it can ever be completely organized as there will always be new things coming in making it more and more complicated. I may finally be able to go back to being friends with a certain person. I need to figure out what I want from my relationship with another certain person, or if i want it for that matter. I need to figure out if a third person is even worth the trouble of continuing the relationship we have. I think my biggest thing right now is i need to stay away from romantic relationships, because that is the cause of a hell of a lot of the mess. Until I figure out what i want anyway. Of course you always sort of know what you want, but i have such an idealist view of my future that i don't think i'll ever find that ideal. I think another part of my problem is that the one time that i allowed myself to compromise from my ideal and actually fell in love, he turned out to be a bit of a jack ass in the end. And any time i start to compromise that happens. So i kind of adopted a why compromise attitude, which hasn't worked so well either. I'm driving myself crazy with all that. Only when certain people are around or come to mind. Not all the time, but sometimes quite a bit of it.
Candace is home now too, so poor Bails is back in defensive, watchful, don't want to let anyone touch me mode. I'm sure once he gets used to Candace and Coco he'll be fine again. At least now he's used to Dawn and Chopper. I think he actually likes Chopper. Probably mostly because he's not alone all day anymore.
New dance lessons start tonight. I had signed up for 2 classes, but I think i'm only going to take the one. Haven't paid yet, so that shouldn't be a problem. I dunno we'll see how I feel about it tonight. I haven't been going to the dances recently because of abnormal circumstances on the particular nights. It kinda sucks, 'cause i miss it. I have to make sure I go next week. No excuses for not going.
Yay, I have a riding lesson tomorrow too! I haven't had a lesson in a while. Mostly because of the money situation. I've got a show coming up on the 29th, so I need to see if there's anything she sees that i'm doing that can be fixed. Any one who wants to come watch the show is welcome to come. Let me know and I can get you directions or an address, whichever you prefer.
So much going on in my head. It's a huge mess in there and i don't know where to begin to clean it up. Not that it can ever be completely organized as there will always be new things coming in making it more and more complicated. I may finally be able to go back to being friends with a certain person. I need to figure out what I want from my relationship with another certain person, or if i want it for that matter. I need to figure out if a third person is even worth the trouble of continuing the relationship we have. I think my biggest thing right now is i need to stay away from romantic relationships, because that is the cause of a hell of a lot of the mess. Until I figure out what i want anyway. Of course you always sort of know what you want, but i have such an idealist view of my future that i don't think i'll ever find that ideal. I think another part of my problem is that the one time that i allowed myself to compromise from my ideal and actually fell in love, he turned out to be a bit of a jack ass in the end. And any time i start to compromise that happens. So i kind of adopted a why compromise attitude, which hasn't worked so well either. I'm driving myself crazy with all that. Only when certain people are around or come to mind. Not all the time, but sometimes quite a bit of it.