.a painful realization that all will go wrong.

[whereshehides]

avoiding the transparency triggered by impostering the person i used to be. although i would enjoy talking to her, life is easy now. laid back. managable amounts of awkwardness and not letting people down. doing what they want and not straying far from the seemingly moral side of life. why is lying to yourself prized while lying to someone else is so firmly condemned? mutual attraction ignored for safety and comfort...

not on my watch. things happen. dynamics change. and people move on.