My own little rant!
I continued writing my psych essay at 8am this morning and I didn't finish it until about 11:15am. It ended up being 2014 words, not including the citations and bibliography. It was 9 pages all up!!! EY CARUMBA!!! Sé hablar español. ¡La gente mexicana habla español! Eh he he....try figure that one out!!!
Handed in my assignment at like 1:30pm...so it was in good and earlish....considering it had to be in at 5pm today. They're so bloody tight!!
Anyway....feeling even worse today. Cold isn't getting any better. Every morning I wake up and feel really crap. Dosed up on the good ol' codral though....i'll probably OD from it in the end! But yeah...really feeling crap. The only good thing about it is that i'm not hungry AT ALL!! Like, I only ate dinner tonight, 3 fork fulls of mashed potato and 2 pieces of chicken schnitzel....it's going to make me fat I know it!! But yeah....it's weird though. Even though I feel like crapola, I feel better about myself because I haven't eaten...GO FIGURE!!!
Continuing on Enks post, it makes me absolutely sick when people think that they know everything about eating disorders. I understand that they try and understand and yes, sometimes it does shit me that they don't know enough, but when people act as though they really understand what we are saying and they go "yeah, I can relate" or, "yeah, I get ya," it really shits me. Do they know what its like to hate food. But not just to hate food. To absolutely despise it. Everything about it. ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING!!! But it's not just that we despise food. Oh no...not at all. Not only that, but we are scared of it. What it will do to us if we eat it. Tell me, who can honestly say that they understand where I am coming from? ANYONE!!!
Look, sorry about that. I'm not trying to say to people "just leave me alone because you don't understand me." I'm not saying to you that you shouldn't understand. It's not really normal people that shit me. What shits me is the magazines, the studies, the stuff in the biology and psychology texts books, schoom presentations, etc. Yes, ok, most people do eat fruit, veggies, healthy stuff. AND fatty stuff. Personally, i'm not surprised that the whole worlds obese. But when people day things like, "anorexic people only eat crackers and drink water." What do they know....and answer me this!! What do bulimic people eat?!?! HA!!! Not a bloody clue. We either eat nothing, or everything. At the moment, i'm going through the nothing stage...AND LOVING IT!!!
Anyway, time to socialise with grandparents. Going out with Court tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT!!!
Love ya'll
Handed in my assignment at like 1:30pm...so it was in good and earlish....considering it had to be in at 5pm today. They're so bloody tight!!
Anyway....feeling even worse today. Cold isn't getting any better. Every morning I wake up and feel really crap. Dosed up on the good ol' codral though....i'll probably OD from it in the end! But yeah...really feeling crap. The only good thing about it is that i'm not hungry AT ALL!! Like, I only ate dinner tonight, 3 fork fulls of mashed potato and 2 pieces of chicken schnitzel....it's going to make me fat I know it!! But yeah....it's weird though. Even though I feel like crapola, I feel better about myself because I haven't eaten...GO FIGURE!!!
Continuing on Enks post, it makes me absolutely sick when people think that they know everything about eating disorders. I understand that they try and understand and yes, sometimes it does shit me that they don't know enough, but when people act as though they really understand what we are saying and they go "yeah, I can relate" or, "yeah, I get ya," it really shits me. Do they know what its like to hate food. But not just to hate food. To absolutely despise it. Everything about it. ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING!!! But it's not just that we despise food. Oh no...not at all. Not only that, but we are scared of it. What it will do to us if we eat it. Tell me, who can honestly say that they understand where I am coming from? ANYONE!!!
Look, sorry about that. I'm not trying to say to people "just leave me alone because you don't understand me." I'm not saying to you that you shouldn't understand. It's not really normal people that shit me. What shits me is the magazines, the studies, the stuff in the biology and psychology texts books, schoom presentations, etc. Yes, ok, most people do eat fruit, veggies, healthy stuff. AND fatty stuff. Personally, i'm not surprised that the whole worlds obese. But when people day things like, "anorexic people only eat crackers and drink water." What do they know....and answer me this!! What do bulimic people eat?!?! HA!!! Not a bloody clue. We either eat nothing, or everything. At the moment, i'm going through the nothing stage...AND LOVING IT!!!
Anyway, time to socialise with grandparents. Going out with Court tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT!!!
Love ya'll