Why change when things are always going to be the same?
I can't do this. I threw up on Wednesday morning after a binge. I then fasted until last night, when I ate dinner because I was around my family, and then threw it up. I now haven't eaten again and badly don't want to because it's going to make me fat...YET...if I want to try this and try and get better, then I HAVE to eat something. I have to be able to mark it off my goals sheet. I just can't do it. I'm a weak piece of shit and I am never going to get better. Thing is, truely I never will get better. I will always have issues with food, weight, body image....everything. I will always have the possibility of binging and purging again every so often. I will never be rid of this.....NEVER EVER!!!!! So whats the point. I may aswell stay where I am. It's not going to make any fucking difference anyway.