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i've been laying in bed for 2 hours trying to go to sleep. it aint comin. i've been laying there tossing and turning trying to bore myself to sleep. i keep hearing the books in the background of my mind playing really quietly (its kind of weird) and saying things to myself like, think of something boring. try and control your breathing. look at the black behind your eyes and stop imagining shit. i do that. i day dream all night and never fall asleep.
i don't dream when i sleep forreal either. someone told me that means i don't sleep in rem sleep very long that i sleep in that really deep sleep. which i can believe. i know i still dream, but its very rare that i remember dreams and if i do its on nights when i wake up covered in sweat, or on the floor, or completely wrapped up in my sheets like a cacoon, or with the sheets on the floor.
and often times when i do dream its at times when i'm in new places, situations, or during times when something traumatic has happened. so i'm surprised i haven't dreamt since i've been here. i'll probably dream when school starts a couple of times. i'll probably start to sleep better if i start taking my medicine like i'm supposed to.
i just don't get it b/c i'm fucking tired! maybe i'm not asleep b/c theres things my mind still needs to work out. for some reason things don't make sense in my head until i write them down.
i'm going to start exercising at nite so i can sleep.
that'll help too. beh. i'm done.
i don't dream when i sleep forreal either. someone told me that means i don't sleep in rem sleep very long that i sleep in that really deep sleep. which i can believe. i know i still dream, but its very rare that i remember dreams and if i do its on nights when i wake up covered in sweat, or on the floor, or completely wrapped up in my sheets like a cacoon, or with the sheets on the floor.
and often times when i do dream its at times when i'm in new places, situations, or during times when something traumatic has happened. so i'm surprised i haven't dreamt since i've been here. i'll probably dream when school starts a couple of times. i'll probably start to sleep better if i start taking my medicine like i'm supposed to.
i just don't get it b/c i'm fucking tired! maybe i'm not asleep b/c theres things my mind still needs to work out. for some reason things don't make sense in my head until i write them down.
i'm going to start exercising at nite so i can sleep.
that'll help too. beh. i'm done.