xoxo.
It's a shame when people, objects, masterpieces go unnoticed. It seems that has been happening alot around here lately. I find myself always at Todd's apartment. I can't stand being in my own home. I dread it and when I'm in the familiar atmospher...I find my eyes red and swollen for hours. I've tried talking to people about it but I really doubt anybody understands. Im even getting help and all thats doing is wasting money that I dont have. Godfuckingdamnit! I can't really talk to Todd all that much either...I just like having him around me. I act like a child when I'm with him and he compliments me alot. Saying that my laugh is incredible...and that I've got the most gorgeous eyes...and my mouth is a perfect shade of red. It feels good and I lose myself in it all. I haven't given up my heart to him, and I promise I won't. It's not somthign I plan on doing anytime soon...or ever again. I don't understand why I am crying 2-4 times a day. I don't understand why I haven't slept a night through in at least 2 months. I don't understand why I have a continuous fear of something(and I have no idea what). I don't understand why I'm giving up on everyone and everything. In good news...I finished a painting I've been working on for a couple months now...I think I may post it as soon as I can get my hands on a digital. Which will prolly be a while.
okay...I'm done. <3
she said to me..."your heart is an organ as big as your fist, keeping loving, keep fighting"
okay...I'm done. <3
she said to me..."your heart is an organ as big as your fist, keeping loving, keep fighting"