ten weeks ago
haven't been updating much, i sort've forgot that i promised i'd be keeping up with this after i last posted pictures.
spring break was relaxing to say the least. although i wish i would've been more productive, i didn't see the hassle in trying to make plans with people who nag the fuck out of me for neglecting them, which i don't. i'm just busy with work most of the time. and even when i do have free time and they know i do, they don't bother. the old group of friends almost got together but, considering the circumstances, couldn't happen. soon i'm hoping, if ever again.
an old buddy friend of mine vearsna...well he and i haven't talked much for the last few years because of each of us moving and losing contact with one another. recently we got in contact and maybe if things work out we'll hang out. i miss the kid.
this goes out to the person who is still after all these years trying to earn my forgiveness. i can never let myself back into someones arms, someone who deemed me unworthy of holding onto. you left, you went to another, you came back when shit hit the fan. don't you ever think for one minute i can allow to be deceived so deeply again. i know i'm hurting you, but if you think of how you damaged me throughout those months, you would realize. although i wish sometimes for another to lay with me, that another will never be you.
other things overall have been great. except for the five page essay that's due in a week. i've had a little under or over a month to do. whoops.
- steven