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New Years Resolution (finally): Start smelling the coffee.
My life has literally turned into a blur and I know I'm missing out on so many things. I wake-up every morning and all I can think about is the long list of things I need to do before the day is over. I'm on "break" right now and I'm STILL running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I have grad school applications to fill out, lives to save (rrriiiiggghhhttt...) and random errands to run. I guess the reality of graduating is actually starting to hit me and I'm terrified. I don't know what I'm doing next year or where I'm going to be living. I could be in grad school anywhere from Minnesota to Massachusetts or I could just be working somewhere or I could be doing a post-bac program to finish my pre-med requirements... there are just too many variables.
I know that graduating this year is a financial necessity, but I have such mixed feelings. I'm excited about the challenges graduate level work will bring, but on the other hand, I'm sacrificing my senior year of college. If I had missed my senior year of high school, I don't think I'd look back at high school with as many fond memories. I'm nervous that by graduating early, I won't really appreciate the whole "college thing." Don't get me wrong, I've loved Loyola, I've made some great friends, and I know I've gotten a good education, but something still feels like it's missing... and the only thing I can think of is a true senior year. There were so many things I wanted to do when I got to college and I just feel like the time flew by so quickly that I didn't even have time to blink... I guess the biggest thing I feel like I'm missing out (besides the social aspect of senior year) is studying abroad. I swore to myself that I would study abroad when I got to college and I'm SUPER BUMMED that it never happened. I know I can still travel, but it's not the same as living somewhere foreign for an extended period of time.
Ugh... I'm so mixed up right now. My LAST semester at Loyola starts tomorrow and I'm nervous for the future... I just want to take a step back and appreciate the whole "college experience" this semester. I want to take time out of my insane schedule to do things that I actually enjoy... this could be my last semester in Chicago and I just want to start smelling the coffee.
My life has literally turned into a blur and I know I'm missing out on so many things. I wake-up every morning and all I can think about is the long list of things I need to do before the day is over. I'm on "break" right now and I'm STILL running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I have grad school applications to fill out, lives to save (rrriiiiggghhhttt...) and random errands to run. I guess the reality of graduating is actually starting to hit me and I'm terrified. I don't know what I'm doing next year or where I'm going to be living. I could be in grad school anywhere from Minnesota to Massachusetts or I could just be working somewhere or I could be doing a post-bac program to finish my pre-med requirements... there are just too many variables.
I know that graduating this year is a financial necessity, but I have such mixed feelings. I'm excited about the challenges graduate level work will bring, but on the other hand, I'm sacrificing my senior year of college. If I had missed my senior year of high school, I don't think I'd look back at high school with as many fond memories. I'm nervous that by graduating early, I won't really appreciate the whole "college thing." Don't get me wrong, I've loved Loyola, I've made some great friends, and I know I've gotten a good education, but something still feels like it's missing... and the only thing I can think of is a true senior year. There were so many things I wanted to do when I got to college and I just feel like the time flew by so quickly that I didn't even have time to blink... I guess the biggest thing I feel like I'm missing out (besides the social aspect of senior year) is studying abroad. I swore to myself that I would study abroad when I got to college and I'm SUPER BUMMED that it never happened. I know I can still travel, but it's not the same as living somewhere foreign for an extended period of time.
Ugh... I'm so mixed up right now. My LAST semester at Loyola starts tomorrow and I'm nervous for the future... I just want to take a step back and appreciate the whole "college experience" this semester. I want to take time out of my insane schedule to do things that I actually enjoy... this could be my last semester in Chicago and I just want to start smelling the coffee.