Has that much changed so quickly?
On January 31st, 2009, I posted a note/survey thing on my Facebook. Less survey, actually, more "evaluation and random facts" about my life at that time. Here is what I wrote.
Rule: Once you've been tagged you must complete a list of 25 things about you and tag 25 people to it, including the person who sent it to you.
1. I'm a chronic fidgeter. I fidget with everything in every situation, and making eye contact with people makes it eight bagillion times worse.
2. That being said, I have a hard time with eye contact. Doesn't matter who you are.
3. I am obsessed with historical artifacts, ancient architecture, and pretty much anything older than me.
4. I have obnoxiously large feet and hands.
5. No matter how hard I try to be clean and organized, it never really works for more than a couple days. I swear by post-it notes, but I often lose them before I do what's on them.
6. I love to sing, and I feel like my voice is much better than it ever has been, and I constantly wonder if I'm good enough that anyone would be interested to listen. I've been asked to do hooks on a a couple hip hop tracks, and backing vocals for rock bands, but nothing ever pans out. So here I sit, wondering.
7. I would give just about anything to be able to own, and learn to play, a piano.
8. Another thing I wonder about all the time is what life would have been like if I hadn't thrown my back out while I was planning to join the military. That was one of the single most depressing things in my life; I don't think I'd ever wanted soemthing that bad, and then have it all thrown away because my bones don't function correctly.
9. I write dark and disturbing prose pieces and poetry; but on the contrary, I've had lots of people tell me I should be a motivational speaker or a guidance counselor. Haha.
10. I live in the same house with my brother, and have forever, but I really don't hardly know him at all. It's kind of lame, and I hope someday that we wind up being friends.
11. I've always wanted my grandfather to walk me down the aisle when I get married someday, but now that he's gone, I hope that my step dad will be there to do it instead.
12. Gary is my biological father but David is my dad.
13. I love alliteration, and in most of my writing, I (often unintentionally) play with it, as well as near rhyme, and anything involving the messing around with sound.
14. I always thought of myself as being someone who could not draw to save my life, and to this day I still can't believe some of the beautiful and interesting pieces I've created since my stumbling into the arts. Never would have thought I could excell to where I am, on accident.
15. One of my most comfortable places to be at this point in time is the Museum that I volunteer/intern at. There's nothing like a day in the attic pawing through boxes of old stuff to clear my head and de-stress.
16. I wonder on a regular basis where I'm going to end up in the next few years.
17. I feel like I'm waiting for my life to begin.
18. I'm a dreamer.
19. I am a fanatic and complete mess about time. I plan things down to the MINUTE, and always feel like I'm not going to have enough time to do the things I need to get done.
20. I miss horseback riding, and most of all, my Munchkin. That horse was my heart and soul...we had a love-hate relationship, but in the long run, we knew what each other needed and wanted when no one else understood.
21. I have every intention of losing weight, and I want to SO bad, but I never seem to be able to do it.
22. I feel like a cow, but I also, for the first time in my life, I feel kinda pretty, too.
23. I usually don't go through with relationships, but I think this time I'm gonna be okay.
24. I love going outside and realizing it's one of the most beautiful days I've ever seen. I love setting aside a minute to just take it all in and realize how beautiful the world can be sometimes.
25. I feel overlooked and underestimated; but I'm getting closer every day to where I want to be.
Now here are my updates/fixes.
1. I'm getting better with the fidgeting. It's all about confidence. There's no reason to fidget and make oneself look awkward and unfit for social situations.
2. I still have a tough time with eye contact. Not because I'm afraid of people, though, because it's just plain awkward! lmao.
3. I am still obsessed with history and architecture; I plan someday to go to grad school for Museum Studies; Collections Management and Historic Preservation/Conservation.
4. So what if my feet and ahnds are really big? That's not how you define a person. It really does not matter in the least.
5. I'm getting better and being clean and organized. I hoed out my whole room pretty much this past summer and threw a TON of things away. And my dorm's really clean this year, too.
6. I love to sing, but it's not going anywhere. I don't really want it to. That's not the kind of life for me.
7. I still would love to learn to play a piano, and own one.
8. :sigh: This one's a huge lifestyke change for me. I always wondered what life would be like if I'd joined the military, right? Well. I'm about to find out. I'm joining the Navy when I graduate in December. No more wondering for this girl, I'm all about the doing. This is my life, it's MY time.
9. I recently found a disk with those pieces of dark poetry and prose. I thought I'd lost them all. It almost made me cry to read some of them. (Many of them I wrote, and never read again until now.) Some are just. So very sad.
10. My brother's kind of cool. We're almost borderline friends. I like it. We're making progress, definitely.
11. I definitely plan on having my stepdad walk me down the aisle someday.
12. This one doesn't need changing. Gary is my biiological father, but David is my dad. This is cemented more and more every day. I've always said I'd never known what it was like to have a dad...he was right under my nose the whole time, I just hadn't grown up enough to notice our similarities. He's my dad and I love him for that. I wonder if he knows.
13. (?) nothing to change.
14. Never thought I could excell to where I am, on accident. Still applies. Even more so now. In so many ways. Asa person, in school, in life in general. Even my failures are a part of the bigger success that is my life.
15. I worked at the museum all summer as a non-paid intern; I love it there. Good thing- They gave me a job. I am an official museum professional. A Collections Manager. That kind of job straight out of a Bachelor's Program, especially without a major in Museum Studies, is practically unheard of.Every day, I'm a step closer.
16. No more wondering where I'll end up in a few years- if all goes as planned, I'll be in the Navy. I guess I still don't know WHERE I'll be, but I know who I'll be. A member of the United States Navy.
17. No more waiting for my life to begin...I realized I have to take control. If I want my life to begin, I have to kickstart it. And I will. I am.
18. I'm no longer a dreamer, I'm a do-er. I take action. I take life into my own hands.
19. I'm still a fanatic and complete mess about time. Stressed as all hell that there are not enough minutes in the day to finish all the work I must finish to graduate in December.
20. I do miss my babygirl Munchkin, but I need ot live in the now. The past will not resurface-this is the here and the now.
21. There is no "wanting to lose weight". There is only ACTING on losing weight. I've lost 25 pounds since mid-May. I am officially within bodyfat requirements for the USNavy.
22. I not only felt like a cow, I looked like one too. Now I look fantastic. I'm not thin yet, by any means, but I work at it every day. It's not a diet, or a weightloss plan, it's a lifestyle. I have changed my way of life.
23. That relationship wasn't okay, despite me thinking so. In fact, he ended it about 3 weeks after I wrote this. Now I've got my sights set on a friend; he needs time, and I don't have eyes for anyone else. So I'll wait it out and be here for him 'til he's ready. If he's never ready, someone else will find me.
24. The world is beautiful. I can't wait to travel it.
25. There will be no more overlooked and underestimated. I will bring myself to the top where everyone can see who I am and what I am capable of.
Every day I'm one step closer to who I want to be.
Rule: Once you've been tagged you must complete a list of 25 things about you and tag 25 people to it, including the person who sent it to you.
1. I'm a chronic fidgeter. I fidget with everything in every situation, and making eye contact with people makes it eight bagillion times worse.
2. That being said, I have a hard time with eye contact. Doesn't matter who you are.
3. I am obsessed with historical artifacts, ancient architecture, and pretty much anything older than me.
4. I have obnoxiously large feet and hands.
5. No matter how hard I try to be clean and organized, it never really works for more than a couple days. I swear by post-it notes, but I often lose them before I do what's on them.
6. I love to sing, and I feel like my voice is much better than it ever has been, and I constantly wonder if I'm good enough that anyone would be interested to listen. I've been asked to do hooks on a a couple hip hop tracks, and backing vocals for rock bands, but nothing ever pans out. So here I sit, wondering.
7. I would give just about anything to be able to own, and learn to play, a piano.
8. Another thing I wonder about all the time is what life would have been like if I hadn't thrown my back out while I was planning to join the military. That was one of the single most depressing things in my life; I don't think I'd ever wanted soemthing that bad, and then have it all thrown away because my bones don't function correctly.
9. I write dark and disturbing prose pieces and poetry; but on the contrary, I've had lots of people tell me I should be a motivational speaker or a guidance counselor. Haha.
10. I live in the same house with my brother, and have forever, but I really don't hardly know him at all. It's kind of lame, and I hope someday that we wind up being friends.
11. I've always wanted my grandfather to walk me down the aisle when I get married someday, but now that he's gone, I hope that my step dad will be there to do it instead.
12. Gary is my biological father but David is my dad.
13. I love alliteration, and in most of my writing, I (often unintentionally) play with it, as well as near rhyme, and anything involving the messing around with sound.
14. I always thought of myself as being someone who could not draw to save my life, and to this day I still can't believe some of the beautiful and interesting pieces I've created since my stumbling into the arts. Never would have thought I could excell to where I am, on accident.
15. One of my most comfortable places to be at this point in time is the Museum that I volunteer/intern at. There's nothing like a day in the attic pawing through boxes of old stuff to clear my head and de-stress.
16. I wonder on a regular basis where I'm going to end up in the next few years.
17. I feel like I'm waiting for my life to begin.
18. I'm a dreamer.
19. I am a fanatic and complete mess about time. I plan things down to the MINUTE, and always feel like I'm not going to have enough time to do the things I need to get done.
20. I miss horseback riding, and most of all, my Munchkin. That horse was my heart and soul...we had a love-hate relationship, but in the long run, we knew what each other needed and wanted when no one else understood.
21. I have every intention of losing weight, and I want to SO bad, but I never seem to be able to do it.
22. I feel like a cow, but I also, for the first time in my life, I feel kinda pretty, too.
23. I usually don't go through with relationships, but I think this time I'm gonna be okay.
24. I love going outside and realizing it's one of the most beautiful days I've ever seen. I love setting aside a minute to just take it all in and realize how beautiful the world can be sometimes.
25. I feel overlooked and underestimated; but I'm getting closer every day to where I want to be.
Now here are my updates/fixes.
1. I'm getting better with the fidgeting. It's all about confidence. There's no reason to fidget and make oneself look awkward and unfit for social situations.
2. I still have a tough time with eye contact. Not because I'm afraid of people, though, because it's just plain awkward! lmao.
3. I am still obsessed with history and architecture; I plan someday to go to grad school for Museum Studies; Collections Management and Historic Preservation/Conservation.
4. So what if my feet and ahnds are really big? That's not how you define a person. It really does not matter in the least.
5. I'm getting better and being clean and organized. I hoed out my whole room pretty much this past summer and threw a TON of things away. And my dorm's really clean this year, too.
6. I love to sing, but it's not going anywhere. I don't really want it to. That's not the kind of life for me.
7. I still would love to learn to play a piano, and own one.
8. :sigh: This one's a huge lifestyke change for me. I always wondered what life would be like if I'd joined the military, right? Well. I'm about to find out. I'm joining the Navy when I graduate in December. No more wondering for this girl, I'm all about the doing. This is my life, it's MY time.
9. I recently found a disk with those pieces of dark poetry and prose. I thought I'd lost them all. It almost made me cry to read some of them. (Many of them I wrote, and never read again until now.) Some are just. So very sad.
10. My brother's kind of cool. We're almost borderline friends. I like it. We're making progress, definitely.
11. I definitely plan on having my stepdad walk me down the aisle someday.
12. This one doesn't need changing. Gary is my biiological father, but David is my dad. This is cemented more and more every day. I've always said I'd never known what it was like to have a dad...he was right under my nose the whole time, I just hadn't grown up enough to notice our similarities. He's my dad and I love him for that. I wonder if he knows.
13. (?) nothing to change.
14. Never thought I could excell to where I am, on accident. Still applies. Even more so now. In so many ways. Asa person, in school, in life in general. Even my failures are a part of the bigger success that is my life.
15. I worked at the museum all summer as a non-paid intern; I love it there. Good thing- They gave me a job. I am an official museum professional. A Collections Manager. That kind of job straight out of a Bachelor's Program, especially without a major in Museum Studies, is practically unheard of.Every day, I'm a step closer.
16. No more wondering where I'll end up in a few years- if all goes as planned, I'll be in the Navy. I guess I still don't know WHERE I'll be, but I know who I'll be. A member of the United States Navy.
17. No more waiting for my life to begin...I realized I have to take control. If I want my life to begin, I have to kickstart it. And I will. I am.
18. I'm no longer a dreamer, I'm a do-er. I take action. I take life into my own hands.
19. I'm still a fanatic and complete mess about time. Stressed as all hell that there are not enough minutes in the day to finish all the work I must finish to graduate in December.
20. I do miss my babygirl Munchkin, but I need ot live in the now. The past will not resurface-this is the here and the now.
21. There is no "wanting to lose weight". There is only ACTING on losing weight. I've lost 25 pounds since mid-May. I am officially within bodyfat requirements for the USNavy.
22. I not only felt like a cow, I looked like one too. Now I look fantastic. I'm not thin yet, by any means, but I work at it every day. It's not a diet, or a weightloss plan, it's a lifestyle. I have changed my way of life.
23. That relationship wasn't okay, despite me thinking so. In fact, he ended it about 3 weeks after I wrote this. Now I've got my sights set on a friend; he needs time, and I don't have eyes for anyone else. So I'll wait it out and be here for him 'til he's ready. If he's never ready, someone else will find me.
24. The world is beautiful. I can't wait to travel it.
25. There will be no more overlooked and underestimated. I will bring myself to the top where everyone can see who I am and what I am capable of.
Every day I'm one step closer to who I want to be.