Seems like everyone's got their beef,
but tomorrow we'll be shinin' brighter, gotta keep on fightin'...
I. Officially kinda hate school right now. Just want to cry.
It's too hard. It's too much work.
I have never felt like the dumb kid before in a class.
Right now I feel like these people are so much smarter than I, and I ...I don't know.
I feel like I don't belong here. I am not as intelligent as I thought I was? I guess?
Maybe I'm really just not so cut out for this college stuff.
And on top of this,Molly has ditched me three nights in a row.
It's the first FRIDAY OF THE SEMESTER and
I have NOTHING TO DO.
She'll text me, text me, then when I ask what's going on, she'll stop.
End of conversation. Just ignore me.
If you don't want me to come hang out, just fucking tell me. Serioously.
She's making me feel like...such a piece of dirt.
Like I am not good enough to even deserve an explanation.
Like I deserve nothing other than to be left hanging constantly.
Doubting myself.
I miss my mom. I miss Corine, Joey, and Shaun. I miss Crystal. I miss my jobs that I "hated" so much. I miss my friends at work. I miss my bedroom. I miss my house. I miss my kitten.
I seriously just feel like all out fucking crying. I never do this shit.
I'm the rock.
Rocks don't get emotional.
Fuck this.
I. Officially kinda hate school right now. Just want to cry.
It's too hard. It's too much work.
I have never felt like the dumb kid before in a class.
Right now I feel like these people are so much smarter than I, and I ...I don't know.
I feel like I don't belong here. I am not as intelligent as I thought I was? I guess?
Maybe I'm really just not so cut out for this college stuff.
And on top of this,Molly has ditched me three nights in a row.
It's the first FRIDAY OF THE SEMESTER and
I have NOTHING TO DO.
She'll text me, text me, then when I ask what's going on, she'll stop.
End of conversation. Just ignore me.
If you don't want me to come hang out, just fucking tell me. Serioously.
She's making me feel like...such a piece of dirt.
Like I am not good enough to even deserve an explanation.
Like I deserve nothing other than to be left hanging constantly.
Doubting myself.
I miss my mom. I miss Corine, Joey, and Shaun. I miss Crystal. I miss my jobs that I "hated" so much. I miss my friends at work. I miss my bedroom. I miss my house. I miss my kitten.
I seriously just feel like all out fucking crying. I never do this shit.
I'm the rock.
Rocks don't get emotional.
Fuck this.