Posted this as a myspace bulletin. Thought it was deserving.
1. List TEN things you want to say to TEN people but know you never will.
2. Don't say who each is.
3. Feel free to comment or guess who.
[Since this isn't on myspace, I miht as well just say who the people are. Although some are obvious.]
1. Joey(high school best friend.) - We used to be so close. I miss you. I have always loved you, and I think I always will. I would have given heart and soul for you, but I knew you'd never return it one hundred percent. I am completely and utterly happy for you, and where you're at in life right now. I know the two of you are happy, and that's perfectly okay with me. Again, I always have, and always will, love you.
2. Father - You are the lowest, scummiest, grossest piece of shit that comes to mind when I think of things I hate. I hate the things I have genetically inherited from you, and I hope to god I NEVER end up even remotely like you. You are a disgrace to parenthood. Don't have children if you can't take care fo them. Don't try to get to know them if you really don't give a shit. I bet your wife is rolling in her grave right now watching the things you've done, the decisions you've made, and the life you're making for your son. I don't care anymore what you do to me, but for God's sake, be there for him.
3. Corine(best friend) - I feel we have been distanced. Not only physically, but emotionally as well. I felt it was a long time coming, as someone more important had stepped into our lives and I had to relinquish my throne as number one. We have been through so much together. I hit rock bottom, and you were right there with me. You are truly my best friend, and the truest friend I've ever had. Even if we don't really have what we once did, I still have those memories, and some days that's all that gets me by. Until next time, I love you, I miss you, and I'm learning not to need you quite so much, best friend.
4. Zach(best friend's on and off fiancee) - Sometimes I really hate you for the things you do to my best friend. The situations you put her in. But I know deep down that she needs you and loves you, and no matter what happens, she's going to stick with it. A part of me thinks you're really an awesome person and loves you almost as much as her, but you have to realize it will never be complete, as there will always be that certain protectiveness a female has for her best friend. Take care of her, or I might have to kill you.
5. Sam(ex) - Dearest piece of my past, I have apologized for things I have done, in hopes of easing the pain and altering the scars I have caused you. I've really put myself on the line on a couple occasions lately to tell you things, only to get squat in return. I'm not sure what I really expected, but I can tell you this; I expected more from you. It pisses me off that you looked at me like I was devil spawn for the better part of a year, then all of asudden come busting out of the woodwork with nice things to say, and a generally caring attitude. Well, damnit, wether you're dating her or not, it doesn't mean you can throw me around like this. Either be my friend or DON'T. It's too hard for me to read between your god damn fucking lines.
6. Grandpa - It still makes me sad to think you've moved on. I see your navy portrait on the mantelpiece and wonder what it would have been like to have known you then. Shit, I think I'm almost as old now as you were in that photograph. To think that my whole life, you were right next door to talk to, eat with, laugh with, and pick on me. There's nothing else in the world quite like a grandfather. For a long time, you were more the father I never had. I never cried so hard as the night before my graduation party. It all hit me at once that your seat was empty at my graduation, as it would be at my party, and will be at my college graduation, my 20th birthday, and my wedding. Every day I miss you, and I think about you. I am so deeply sorry I never came to say goodbye. I knew it was the end. But I was scared. Scared of what I would see in the dying face of someone I loved so much. But deep down, I know you wouldn't have wanted that to be the last living memory of you I had. Thank you, for everything, and for helping me grow into the person I am. I love you more than you'll ever know.
7. Kailie(sister) - Despite what you think, you don't need a man to make your life complete. Sometimes the things you say regarding that topic (about me) really hurt me. But I have a hard time telling you that. I'm not "afraid of commitment," I just don't go falling for and trying out every guy who looks my way twice. I love you, but you make terrible decisions sometimes. I try to help you in the least rude way possible, but sometimes I just want to smack some sense into you!
8. Mom - I'm glad we're getting along better than we used to. As the person who brought me into this world, and the only parent I knew as a child, you've done a swell job. I wonder sometimes what you really think about the little girl whom you have now raised into a young woman. There are many things I don't tell you, but that's just for your own protection. I couldn't bear to have you worry anymore than you already do. I may not tell you very often, or pretty much ever, but I love you, and I will always be your little girl.
9. This is one of the most important. This one is to myself... You - were a piece of shit. You drank too much, you used too much, you treated other people like shit and you treated yourself even worse. ALCOHOL IS NOT CONFIDENCE. THE HIGH IS NOT POWER. I'mglad you have finally pulled yourself back together and pinned down a goal in life. You have learned from your experiences and are coming out to be quite a fine human being. Keep it that way, shithead.
10. This one's for everyone. For YOU. We may be friends, aquiantances, we may not even really know each other hardly at all. But remember; somehow, someway, no matter how miniscule, you are a piece of me and my life. There is some little niche in my memory, my everyday life, or my future, that is molded just for you. You may do with it as you please.
2. Don't say who each is.
3. Feel free to comment or guess who.
[Since this isn't on myspace, I miht as well just say who the people are. Although some are obvious.]
1. Joey(high school best friend.) - We used to be so close. I miss you. I have always loved you, and I think I always will. I would have given heart and soul for you, but I knew you'd never return it one hundred percent. I am completely and utterly happy for you, and where you're at in life right now. I know the two of you are happy, and that's perfectly okay with me. Again, I always have, and always will, love you.
2. Father - You are the lowest, scummiest, grossest piece of shit that comes to mind when I think of things I hate. I hate the things I have genetically inherited from you, and I hope to god I NEVER end up even remotely like you. You are a disgrace to parenthood. Don't have children if you can't take care fo them. Don't try to get to know them if you really don't give a shit. I bet your wife is rolling in her grave right now watching the things you've done, the decisions you've made, and the life you're making for your son. I don't care anymore what you do to me, but for God's sake, be there for him.
3. Corine(best friend) - I feel we have been distanced. Not only physically, but emotionally as well. I felt it was a long time coming, as someone more important had stepped into our lives and I had to relinquish my throne as number one. We have been through so much together. I hit rock bottom, and you were right there with me. You are truly my best friend, and the truest friend I've ever had. Even if we don't really have what we once did, I still have those memories, and some days that's all that gets me by. Until next time, I love you, I miss you, and I'm learning not to need you quite so much, best friend.
4. Zach(best friend's on and off fiancee) - Sometimes I really hate you for the things you do to my best friend. The situations you put her in. But I know deep down that she needs you and loves you, and no matter what happens, she's going to stick with it. A part of me thinks you're really an awesome person and loves you almost as much as her, but you have to realize it will never be complete, as there will always be that certain protectiveness a female has for her best friend. Take care of her, or I might have to kill you.
5. Sam(ex) - Dearest piece of my past, I have apologized for things I have done, in hopes of easing the pain and altering the scars I have caused you. I've really put myself on the line on a couple occasions lately to tell you things, only to get squat in return. I'm not sure what I really expected, but I can tell you this; I expected more from you. It pisses me off that you looked at me like I was devil spawn for the better part of a year, then all of asudden come busting out of the woodwork with nice things to say, and a generally caring attitude. Well, damnit, wether you're dating her or not, it doesn't mean you can throw me around like this. Either be my friend or DON'T. It's too hard for me to read between your god damn fucking lines.
6. Grandpa - It still makes me sad to think you've moved on. I see your navy portrait on the mantelpiece and wonder what it would have been like to have known you then. Shit, I think I'm almost as old now as you were in that photograph. To think that my whole life, you were right next door to talk to, eat with, laugh with, and pick on me. There's nothing else in the world quite like a grandfather. For a long time, you were more the father I never had. I never cried so hard as the night before my graduation party. It all hit me at once that your seat was empty at my graduation, as it would be at my party, and will be at my college graduation, my 20th birthday, and my wedding. Every day I miss you, and I think about you. I am so deeply sorry I never came to say goodbye. I knew it was the end. But I was scared. Scared of what I would see in the dying face of someone I loved so much. But deep down, I know you wouldn't have wanted that to be the last living memory of you I had. Thank you, for everything, and for helping me grow into the person I am. I love you more than you'll ever know.
7. Kailie(sister) - Despite what you think, you don't need a man to make your life complete. Sometimes the things you say regarding that topic (about me) really hurt me. But I have a hard time telling you that. I'm not "afraid of commitment," I just don't go falling for and trying out every guy who looks my way twice. I love you, but you make terrible decisions sometimes. I try to help you in the least rude way possible, but sometimes I just want to smack some sense into you!
8. Mom - I'm glad we're getting along better than we used to. As the person who brought me into this world, and the only parent I knew as a child, you've done a swell job. I wonder sometimes what you really think about the little girl whom you have now raised into a young woman. There are many things I don't tell you, but that's just for your own protection. I couldn't bear to have you worry anymore than you already do. I may not tell you very often, or pretty much ever, but I love you, and I will always be your little girl.
9. This is one of the most important. This one is to myself... You - were a piece of shit. You drank too much, you used too much, you treated other people like shit and you treated yourself even worse. ALCOHOL IS NOT CONFIDENCE. THE HIGH IS NOT POWER. I'mglad you have finally pulled yourself back together and pinned down a goal in life. You have learned from your experiences and are coming out to be quite a fine human being. Keep it that way, shithead.
10. This one's for everyone. For YOU. We may be friends, aquiantances, we may not even really know each other hardly at all. But remember; somehow, someway, no matter how miniscule, you are a piece of me and my life. There is some little niche in my memory, my everyday life, or my future, that is molded just for you. You may do with it as you please.