I can do without shelter, I just can't do without you.
I called Clayton last night. And, about three rings in, I was thinking about what I'd say to his voicemail this time, right? He actually picked up. Had no idea who I was. "Amanda," I said. "Amanda who? I know lots of Amandas," he says. "Amanda Hollister, Amanda. Amanda from New York, Amanda. Amanda who's been trying get ahold of you for three months, Amanda," I said. "Oh. I'm so sorry. So sorry," he says.
Apparently, he got none of my voicemails. I find that hard to beleive. I can understand that his phone went screwey and deleted all his contacts, which would be why he didn't recognize my number. But I find it damn hard to beleive that he never got any of those voicemails. My gosh, I've been leaving them for three months now.
He's getting married. To that Kitty girl, I'm assuming. I don't even know her real name. He's supposed to call me today. "We have alot of catching up to do," he said. Naw, really? I suppose I shouldn;t be irritated by him...but. I am. But, we'll talk things out. I hope he still comes here this winter. But I doubt he will.
And what really got me. Was when he picked up. I didn't recognize his voice. That voice that told me I was a beautiful person, that voice that listened to my problems and gave me advice, that voice I fell in love with. It was so weird that I didn't recognize it.
Well, I better go get ready for work. I have to leave in a while. I'm really sick again. I've felt horrible all morning. I'm kind of dreading school tomorrow. Icky.
I found all these really funny things on www.blogthings.com. I think it was. They made me laugh. Also, Carolynn sent me this hilarious video this morning. Whoever reads this MUST watch it. It's two boys singing about milk and cereal. It's so funny. http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/milk.php
xoxo
Apparently, he got none of my voicemails. I find that hard to beleive. I can understand that his phone went screwey and deleted all his contacts, which would be why he didn't recognize my number. But I find it damn hard to beleive that he never got any of those voicemails. My gosh, I've been leaving them for three months now.
He's getting married. To that Kitty girl, I'm assuming. I don't even know her real name. He's supposed to call me today. "We have alot of catching up to do," he said. Naw, really? I suppose I shouldn;t be irritated by him...but. I am. But, we'll talk things out. I hope he still comes here this winter. But I doubt he will.
And what really got me. Was when he picked up. I didn't recognize his voice. That voice that told me I was a beautiful person, that voice that listened to my problems and gave me advice, that voice I fell in love with. It was so weird that I didn't recognize it.
Well, I better go get ready for work. I have to leave in a while. I'm really sick again. I've felt horrible all morning. I'm kind of dreading school tomorrow. Icky.
I found all these really funny things on www.blogthings.com. I think it was. They made me laugh. Also, Carolynn sent me this hilarious video this morning. Whoever reads this MUST watch it. It's two boys singing about milk and cereal. It's so funny. http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/milk.php
xoxo