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what the fuck. i am so fucked. i lost my ticket. i was planning on mailing it out days ago i even put a stamp on the envelope and everything but then i was running around trying to pay my credit card bills that i was really behind on and i forgot about the ticket. now i go to address the envelope and i cant find the ticket. me and matt looked everywhere 3x for like 3 hours and i couldnt find it. my guess is that it fell out of my bag when i took my wallet out and i didnt notice. but the thing is i got the ticket on the 27th meaning tomorrow is day 15. day 15 is when it needs to be postmarked or i lose my lisence. im so stressed right now. matts getting me the fone number so i can call tomorrow. so now i have this to worry a bout plus i need an oil change and a second job. i need help.
enough crying. ummm jon started talking to us again and im so happy. usually i wouldnt bother talking to him but it was the first time he did it and hopefully he wont do it again. friends are the most important thing and if you can have friends and your boyfriend/girlfriend at the same time i think those are the best types of relationships possible. i feel really bad that i havent gotten any alone time with my friends we always hang out with matt but they dont seem to mind and i promise this summer that we can just hang out alone if it bothers you. but matt is so awesome with my friends its like were all friends its not like oh this is my boyfriend. i dont know im babbling. but basically it just seems that everyone likes to get girlfriends and forget their friends. people ive known for years it hurts more with. like adam and nick. i totally understand that people's lives are busy but its not that hard to pick up the phone or even send them an im once in a while. it just is like ok u were only hanging out with me cuz u were bored and had nothing better to do. whatever im happy and i call my friends and thats all that matters but i just would hate to see someone i care about have to go through the same struggle i went through after a really difficult breakup when you have no one by your side to help you through it. good luck guys in everything you do. i can only hope that my good friends now wont turn out to be not so good friends after all.
what the fuck im in a really weird mood and im going to stop before i say something stupid.
enough crying. ummm jon started talking to us again and im so happy. usually i wouldnt bother talking to him but it was the first time he did it and hopefully he wont do it again. friends are the most important thing and if you can have friends and your boyfriend/girlfriend at the same time i think those are the best types of relationships possible. i feel really bad that i havent gotten any alone time with my friends we always hang out with matt but they dont seem to mind and i promise this summer that we can just hang out alone if it bothers you. but matt is so awesome with my friends its like were all friends its not like oh this is my boyfriend. i dont know im babbling. but basically it just seems that everyone likes to get girlfriends and forget their friends. people ive known for years it hurts more with. like adam and nick. i totally understand that people's lives are busy but its not that hard to pick up the phone or even send them an im once in a while. it just is like ok u were only hanging out with me cuz u were bored and had nothing better to do. whatever im happy and i call my friends and thats all that matters but i just would hate to see someone i care about have to go through the same struggle i went through after a really difficult breakup when you have no one by your side to help you through it. good luck guys in everything you do. i can only hope that my good friends now wont turn out to be not so good friends after all.
what the fuck im in a really weird mood and im going to stop before i say something stupid.