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Have you ever wanted something so bad but there was nothing in your power you could do to get it (nothing easy anyway such as not changing who you are) But you still like something is wrong with you, that it is your fault you don't have this thing?
I have been feeling this more and more lately. I feel like crying all the time because of it. Pehaps its because I have been reading too many romance novels, I don't know.
I just want someone to love me or like me for me. Who wants to hold my hand and finds me attractive even when I don't.
To make matters worse I want someone asian, which is even more difficult for me as I am white.
Someone who will protect me and always been there for me, even if they make mistakes.
I want an epic love.
But I suppose thats what everyone wants, so why do I get to whine about it?