emo day

[whenisaygoodbye]

Today was probably the most emo day I've had since the beginning of the year, maybe since summer. Full of ups and downs and I'm not quite sure why. I know why I'm happy, I know why I'm sad, but I don't know how I keep switching and half the time I don't realize it until I go back. I had about a half hour to just sit and think after I finished the stupid OGT and I truthfully have to say that I, at times, was having to hold tears back. Tears of happiness, tears of loss, tears of longing, tears of memories. It was good and it was bad, but overall I'm very glad that I did spend that time like I did. In some ways I feel myself slipping back into some old habits, and overall I'm happier with the usualy downs. This journal is more of a personal thing because I know nobody actually reads it save a few people - some of whom mean the world and more to me right now... and I feel that I can say anything, but sometimes I have that urge that I want people to actually read, to maybe actually see how I am or how I think or SOMETHING. If you're going to comment, please, make it worth my time. If you want to hang out or say I'm cool, call me. Not comment.

<3 Peaceout Lovers