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[whenisaygoodbye]

I've offically decided I'm giving up on people. It's not like it used to be I don't really feel the same. Most of the people that used to make me smile when I was quite the opposite don't really seem to do much for me. I don't see my friends from Watterson enough,. but they make me extremely happy and I wouldn't give them up for almost anything...but I know things must move on. No body really has the same effect on me as they did a year ago, I have changed a lot. maybe for better or maybe for worse, I don't know. Sure, I wish it was the same. I wish I could just show up at someones house and there'd be like 20 people there and it would be a blast... People change and theres nothing to do but adjust. I've changed, that's for sure, but the adjustments I'm trying to make never seem quite right. Failure is a part of life, but how do I know when to learn from a mistake or keep pushing and striving? One thing they teach you in school is that you can do anything you want as long as you try, and to just keep trying. How do I know when I'm pushing hard enough, and how do I know what I really want? I truthfully sometimes don't know what I really actually want, it's a hard thing. Sure, everyone has a general idea of this or that, but anything small thing can change a whole persons life, a whole persons outlook. I don't love people as I did, they don't bring the joy as they used to. Maybe it's because I don't see people being as happy as they were. And perhaps I'm too harsh on the freshman...haha, stupid freshman:p. Well...Maybe things will kick back up. Winter is coming to a close, the Sun is out again, and I'll be a lot more cheerful. Or so I hope. See you kids around

<3 peace out Lovers