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it took me forever to fall asleep last night. i couldnt get the whole thing off my mind. i stressed what to do.. what to say.. what not to do.. how to go about the whole thing. and i realized.. i owe you an apology. an apology for not understanding. for being hard headed about the whole thing. im sorry for caring SO much it pisses me off when i feel like youre making a bad desicion. you just gotta understand, youre what keeps me strong. youre the sole source of my happiness.. and when i see you upset.. i dont know what to do. so yeh i may get defensive.. maybe a little to mean about it.. but i dont know how to deal with the situation otherwise. and i know in truth, my opinion doesnt really really matter. youre going to do what makes you happy, despite what anyone says. i dont want to be so protective, that i miss out on you being happy. i hope things do change boo. i hope everything that was said.. was meant. i love you. and im sorry. im here for you. i promise. no more being a stupid ass about it. ok?? im gonna do my job, im gonna support you, im gonna encourage you, imma lo0oo0ve you. lol. no more argueing please. mmkay??