Bittersweet Memories
Well this is a little weird. I havent wrote in this thing in a long time. Well as you read in my last entry i had gotten into a car wreck. Everything is okay now. I am getting a new car but im going to be so ghetto. I get it around the 13th or 14th. Lately ive been really unsure of what i want and how i fell towards people. All the old memories of things make my heart change and is telling my mind to do the right thing. This time i believe the right thing is the best thing. The other night AshAley, Hunter, Angie, Tim, and I all went to Don Pablos to eat. We had a blast. Then we went over to Tinseltown with leroy, tommy, and david. Somthing was weird. It was like i got hit by a rampaging elephant. I found out that nothing was there. From that point on i realized the truth. That maybe i still have feelings for someone else. Its kind of hard ya know? Being with someone but you want to be with someone else that you care about. That one person that you do care about, there was a one time, but not anymore. Its like they vanished. Maybe its that other person... you know the one that still calls you up to see what your up to but deep down inside you know it will never be. You want them to change just that one thing about themselve that you know would make the relationship better. But if you go into the relationship thinking that he would change you come out of the relationship changed yourself. Thats whats tricky. Why does it have to be so hard?