Harry Potterrrrr/I like having a journal
Why am I posting so much lately? I've been posting once every three months for the last two years. And now I'm posting alllll the time. It feels so unnatural. Remember when I used to post 12 times a day with all those stupid memes? Le sighhhh. Those were the days. Anyway. On with the completely necessary LJ entry:
I've been fangirling Harry Potter pretty hard lately. I didn't see the movie because I refuse to spend money on anything, ever, but I rewatched all the other movies and reread books 3-7. Also, I read some very graphic Harry/Slughorn fic. You'd think I would be completely repulsed, but I'm actually finding myself oddly attracted to the guy who plays Slughorn in the movie. So if someone could just kill me, like right now, that would be awesome (and very much appreciated).
Anyway, like I said, I've been rereading the books, particularly enjoying the last two, which I haven't read a million times like the other ones. It's amazing how much I've taken in that I didn't notice in a first reading. There are so many extraordinary things you can realize just by observing the characters' reactions and responses to different events over the course of the story. The fact that Molly Weasley would split her soul in half to protect her children. The fact that Voldemort's anger motivates him to kill literally everyone in the room when he finds out the vault was broken into (and the fact that his Death Eaters know they need to run away to be spared). The idea of Slughorn being one of the three battling Voldemort during the Final Battle, when he used to be very careful not to take sides--is he trying to make up for his mistake? Is he angry with Tom for betraying him? Or has he become even more protective of Hogwarts in the last year?
There are just so many things to think about, and I've had a really good time just trying to process all my observations. Above all, I am finding myself more and more obsessed with Snape. Because so much of the 7th book is about what the characters would do for love, and he is just the perfect example of that. Dumbledore trusts him implicitly and relies on him so much, so you'd think he was secretly a nice guy on the inside. But he's not. Honestly, he's still kind of an asshole. Yes, he's a tortured soul, but he's so whiny with Dumbledore so much of the time. Although I noticed that later on, circa book 6, he takes a completely different tone, like he's grudgingly accepted the 18 years of his life he's given up to fix his mistake. There's something really depressing about it; I wonder if he's just tired or if he already thinks his death is inevitable. If it were me, and I knew that it might almost be over, I would be a little more upbeat. Although I really doubt "upbeat" is anywhere in Snape's repertoire.
Oh man guys, remember my fandom list? The last person I have on there is Renee Fleming...then I got all srs bsns about RL and stopped updating it. Not that I've done a lot of fangirling, but I would think Maggie Smith and Mary McDonnell deserve a re-fangirling mention, and obviously Eve Best should go on there. After all, I did rent a crappy British rape TV movie for her.
It's so weird looking back at that list though, because it reminds me of what I did for that block of 3 years. I mean, most of my traumatic experiences are related to TV deaths. Like when Kerry lost Sandy and Henry on ER, super sadface...I think I was seriously traumatized about that on a daily basis. I remember writing an entry in my paper journal where I went positively nuts about how Sandy's parents were so evil and how distressed I was by the entire thing. And when basically everyone died on 24. I definitely remember being a mess about a lot of those episodes.
Anyway, the point of all of this contemplation is that I like having a journal and writing my thoughts in it, because I like knowing that at 11PM on April 8, 2004, I was positively hysterical because my lesbian TV character idol had her son taken away from her by her positively satanic in-laws. it just gives me some control, knowing that I can place that experience at a certain time and place in my life. Which is why I like that I'm updating my LJ a little more often. For now, at least.
I've been fangirling Harry Potter pretty hard lately. I didn't see the movie because I refuse to spend money on anything, ever, but I rewatched all the other movies and reread books 3-7. Also, I read some very graphic Harry/Slughorn fic. You'd think I would be completely repulsed, but I'm actually finding myself oddly attracted to the guy who plays Slughorn in the movie. So if someone could just kill me, like right now, that would be awesome (and very much appreciated).
Anyway, like I said, I've been rereading the books, particularly enjoying the last two, which I haven't read a million times like the other ones. It's amazing how much I've taken in that I didn't notice in a first reading. There are so many extraordinary things you can realize just by observing the characters' reactions and responses to different events over the course of the story. The fact that Molly Weasley would split her soul in half to protect her children. The fact that Voldemort's anger motivates him to kill literally everyone in the room when he finds out the vault was broken into (and the fact that his Death Eaters know they need to run away to be spared). The idea of Slughorn being one of the three battling Voldemort during the Final Battle, when he used to be very careful not to take sides--is he trying to make up for his mistake? Is he angry with Tom for betraying him? Or has he become even more protective of Hogwarts in the last year?
There are just so many things to think about, and I've had a really good time just trying to process all my observations. Above all, I am finding myself more and more obsessed with Snape. Because so much of the 7th book is about what the characters would do for love, and he is just the perfect example of that. Dumbledore trusts him implicitly and relies on him so much, so you'd think he was secretly a nice guy on the inside. But he's not. Honestly, he's still kind of an asshole. Yes, he's a tortured soul, but he's so whiny with Dumbledore so much of the time. Although I noticed that later on, circa book 6, he takes a completely different tone, like he's grudgingly accepted the 18 years of his life he's given up to fix his mistake. There's something really depressing about it; I wonder if he's just tired or if he already thinks his death is inevitable. If it were me, and I knew that it might almost be over, I would be a little more upbeat. Although I really doubt "upbeat" is anywhere in Snape's repertoire.
Oh man guys, remember my fandom list? The last person I have on there is Renee Fleming...then I got all srs bsns about RL and stopped updating it. Not that I've done a lot of fangirling, but I would think Maggie Smith and Mary McDonnell deserve a re-fangirling mention, and obviously Eve Best should go on there. After all, I did rent a crappy British rape TV movie for her.
It's so weird looking back at that list though, because it reminds me of what I did for that block of 3 years. I mean, most of my traumatic experiences are related to TV deaths. Like when Kerry lost Sandy and Henry on ER, super sadface...I think I was seriously traumatized about that on a daily basis. I remember writing an entry in my paper journal where I went positively nuts about how Sandy's parents were so evil and how distressed I was by the entire thing. And when basically everyone died on 24. I definitely remember being a mess about a lot of those episodes.
Anyway, the point of all of this contemplation is that I like having a journal and writing my thoughts in it, because I like knowing that at 11PM on April 8, 2004, I was positively hysterical because my lesbian TV character idol had her son taken away from her by her positively satanic in-laws. it just gives me some control, knowing that I can place that experience at a certain time and place in my life. Which is why I like that I'm updating my LJ a little more often. For now, at least.