Here's my epic post, as promised.
lmfao, I totally wrote that and got distracted and watched The Queen and it was kind of amusing to come back to that one sentence and see endless white space underneath it.
Anyway, epic things are afoot in the magical world of Kelsey's awkward private fandom experiences.
Here is a photo of the small but glorious collection of items that I picked up at the library this afternoon. In black and white, for dramatic effect (and because the lighting was unimpressive and I was too lazy to spend a lot of time fixing the colors. Laziness ftw!).
In ascending order of enthusiasm:
Door to Door, Painted Lady, Elizabeth I, The Queen, Prime Suspect 2, and--the obvious piece de resistance--"In the Frame: My Life in Words and Pictures" by Helen Mirren. BEST BOOK. I love it. it's so much better than normal autobiographies. Fuck reading. I want to look at pictures and short comments in a pretty handwriting font.
So, first of all, an explanation. Well, I've been avoiding watching anything but Saturday Night Live and 3rd Rock from the Sun for a few weeks, out of fear of losing the truly enjoyable fandom that I found in Jane Curtin. A few weeks ago I tried to watch Groundhog Day, decided that Andie MacDowell was kind of hot, and totally freaked out. So I've been on like...fandom probation or something. And I was looking for something else to watch at the library and I picked out National Treasure 2 because I loved the first one. I mean, lame Disney movies for the win, right? Initially I was kind of opposed to watching it since page 47 was always Alias's thing and I was pretty offended that they tried to use it for their totally less badass plot ideas. But it's the summer, and I'm too bored to stand by my convictions, so I decided to get it. So later that night I watched it with my parents, totally not sensing any red flags (in my defense, usually I have a lot of self-control; I just let my guard down last Monday). And of course Helen was badass and she and Jon Voight were the hot "older couple" of the movie, so I shipped them a little bit...read some horrendous fanfiction, etc. It was pretty much the one night, and I was prepared to leave it at that, but then I was pretty bored a couple days later and I decided to watch the movie a few more times. So then I started wikipedia-searching her name a couple times a day and watching random youtube videos with her. I watched a few vids of Prime Suspect and at this point it was like, okay, at the very least I need to see that. So I was thinking I'd just check those out and see what happened, but then I got really excited last night after I watched Losing Chase on youtube. Because, yes, I am that much of a lesbian. It wasn't entirely the awesome kiss; I just love emotional vulnerability, particularly between women (lmao, clearly I'm teeming with unresolved issues from my childhood), so that was definitely a catalyst for some major fangirling. After that it just felt really necessary to get everything I could get my hands on at the library today. So I did.
Anyway, I watched The Queen earlier--it was kind of the most badass coincidence, because I made that whole post yesterday about understanding historical stoicism through John Adams and this was like that, just SO MUCH BETTER. After looking at the way she sat, for like 5 seconds, it was so obvious what her deal was. It was awesome because I've always seen the Oscars and the Emmys as an issue of skill, and someone deserves to win if they gave the most depth to their role. But it's not even like that with this. It's like understanding a piece of history and culture. It was just really awesome that I could look at the way she walked or spoke and gain so much perspective into her character, because she really made a thing out of committing herself to the role.
Unfortunately I must go to bed, but hopefully I'll be able to continue my epic post tomorrow. Because right now it's epic not so much in length as it is in my excitement, which so far is quite poorly explained.