*sigh* Maryness.
I guess the intensely focused studying thing only worked the one time. Oops. It might be a good thing, though - if I don't do that well on my French final, maybe she'll let me drop it next year. Either way I'm not gonna do that well on it, so I might as well go to bed now.
The whole Eleanor Carter revelation is still just...whoa. I mean, she smiled in this hopeful way. She's...I don't know. It'll take me like a month to even begin to get my head around this.
I was thinking about fandomesque things, which I shouldn't, but...maybe I rushed it? Maybe to me, being so consumed by one person just made it seem like they were naturally the top of my list, and I shouldn't have taken it that way. It's certainly better than being freaking obsessed with someone for 6 months and then not understanding why not, when it's been made out to be this huge thing. I don't really understand any side of it - I'm getting this huge Megan Mullally thing right now, and it feels so perfect because I totally abandoned her right in the middle of something - and I know she has permanent value for me, because the influence she's had on my life is too big not to count. And then Mary...? I honestly have no idea. I've never been more amazed by anyone as an actress, and what's not to love? *headdesk* Whyyyy?
Okay, just had to get that out in the open because it's eating me alive. Bed. Yes.
The whole Eleanor Carter revelation is still just...whoa. I mean, she smiled in this hopeful way. She's...I don't know. It'll take me like a month to even begin to get my head around this.
I was thinking about fandomesque things, which I shouldn't, but...maybe I rushed it? Maybe to me, being so consumed by one person just made it seem like they were naturally the top of my list, and I shouldn't have taken it that way. It's certainly better than being freaking obsessed with someone for 6 months and then not understanding why not, when it's been made out to be this huge thing. I don't really understand any side of it - I'm getting this huge Megan Mullally thing right now, and it feels so perfect because I totally abandoned her right in the middle of something - and I know she has permanent value for me, because the influence she's had on my life is too big not to count. And then Mary...? I honestly have no idea. I've never been more amazed by anyone as an actress, and what's not to love? *headdesk* Whyyyy?
Okay, just had to get that out in the open because it's eating me alive. Bed. Yes.