oh the irony
so i have a countdown on my myspace counting down to the day i move . it used to make me excited but now it just scares the shit out of me . time is going by so quickly. dont get me wrong i cant fucking wait to get out of this place i am just scared about what i am going to. to you.you are waiting for me there and i dont know if i want to go back to the way i was! i love you more then anything and i think i will until the day i die! but we are just so different now ,we didnt mean to become such completley different people but we did and its sad ,but it happened. sometimes i just feel suffocated by you like i am not allowed to just be who i am. so what do i do should i lay in the bed i have made for myslef or should i throw caution to the wind and say fuck it ..... i feel like this is the point in my life where there is a definite fork in the road and the two roads are both scary. i just dont know anymore in ways i feel like when i am with you i lose myself. i am the person who wishes on stars and try to live every day as big and crazy as i can but you never understood that..... i dont know what to think